Sun of a Beach

The End of the Road

2010-06-29T14:09:00.002+08:00

dear readers

its time to say goodbye again

my worst fears came true

she locked her blog

open only to invited readers

as you all know

this is the place where i respond to her blog posts

thats the only reason i came back to blogging

from now on i cant stalk on her blog

i cant hardly know whats happening to her

i cant post responses

since this blog is about her

and only about her

now i see no reason of writing anything here

so let this be the last post

but i'll always be the sun of a beach

while every post before this is directed to her

this final post is to you

my readers

thanks for your support

till we meet again

peace ^^v

The PNP Experience (Part 2: There's No Place Like Home)

2010-06-29T00:59:00.003+08:00

day 3

awake

and its already raining outside

heavy rain

cant go batu ferringhi beach

i missed the chance

to be the sun of that beach

cant go butterfly farm

cant go many places

go around the island inside the car

reached balik pulau

ate asam laksa

reached snake temple

few snakes available

reached queensbay mall

my biggest impression is the toilet and parking ticket

reached kek lok si temple

and its still drizzling on the way up

night falls

went to the stalls nearby sunway hotel

and finally got to eat my favourite penang rojak

day 4

after breakfast

packed our bags and checked out

bought tau sar pneah

went to khoo kongsi

went to the temple of sleeping buddha

went to a wishing pond

threw coins

i wished for good luck

didn't get it

i wished for happiness

got it

lets see

went for lunch after that

kuay teow soup

my recommendation

started the journey home after lunch

used the penang bridge to go back on the mainland

and as usual

i didn't sleep much during the journey home too

4 days

ended fast

nice trip

great memories

but there are times

i sort of disconnected with my friends for a while

because thoughts of you came on my mind

when i reached home

i thought

although there's no place like perlis and penang

but there's no place like home

hope you get what i mean

Silly

2010-06-24T08:44:00.002+08:00

that time your dear was sick

you took bus

and then walked 1km to his place

just to be with him

that time you were lonely at home

your dear walked all the way from his house to yours

at midnight

just to be with you

gosh

you did a lot for each other

but

i dont know how to say

its

its really just

just

ITS JUST SILLY LAH

My Dear

2010-06-24T00:38:00.003+08:00

my dear

your dear fell sick

my dear

i'm sick too

my dear

your dear had fever

my dear

i'm having cough and sore throat

my dear

you told your dear to take care

my dear

i wish you care for me too

my dear

you told your dear to cover blankie tight tight

my dear

i wish to cover blankie tight tight with you by my side

my dear

i wish to be your dear

but no matter how my dear

you will always be my dear

The PNP Experience (Part 1: The Journey is Part of a Trip)

2010-06-23T16:53:00.005+08:00

pnp

stands for

perlis and penang

back from the 4 days trip

yesterday

a nice experience

i wont forget

day 1

the journey starts

from klang central

at 9.30am

when we reached kangar

its already evening

what to do along the journey?

many will say sleep

but i did not sleep much

most of the time

i looked outside

to enjoy the view

because to me

THE JOURNEY IS ALWAYS PART OF A TRIP

the north-south highway

is full of nice sceneries

credits to the highway builder

i saw

the city skylines of klang valley

the unique rocky landscapes before and after ipoh

the waterfall along the highway

the mining sites extracting granite from the rocky hills

the twists and turns around the mountain

and the tunnel after that

the factories of butterworth

the green paddy fields of kedah

and finally the highway ends in a small town called changlun

a night at kangar

also a small town

with not much entertainment

no saturday night fever whatsoever

day 2

went to kaki bukit

another small town under the hills

along the road

the scenery is my favourite

green paddy fields

with rocky hills as the background

what a place to escape from the busy city life

sitting in one of the rocky hills

is gua kelam

the first time i've been to a cave

batu caves not counted

next stop

padang besar

a town

at the borders

of malaysia and thailand

afternoon

took bus to penang

took ferry across the penang strait

checked in the hotel

not feeling well

bad cough sore throat

lost my voice

didn't go anywhere at night

took some rest in the hotel room

now i shall take a rest here

to be continued

in my next post

day 3 and day 4

P for...

2010-06-19T00:31:00.002+08:00

p for post

your post kept coming

its your third of the day

and i keep respond

thanks for keeping me busy

p for perlis and penang

its where i will be

for the next 4 days

p for postpone

perhaps for those days that i'm away

i would not be able to read your blog

and post my response

i will postpone my response

since its a promise to you

p for passion

the passion that i have for football

the passion that you have to lose weight

the passion that i have for you

the passion that you have for him

last but not least

p for P license

congratulations for passing your driving test

way earlier than i did mine

you can now drive to meet him

you can now drive out for dating

you can even drive me crazy

well you've being doing that long before

but most importantly

drive save

remember

your p stands for probation

while my p stands for professional

peace ^^v

and it starts with a P

Determination is Power

2010-06-19T00:20:00.002+08:00

you seemed determined

very determined

to lose 2kg in 10 days

skipping meals

eating only oatmeals

and exercise like hell

determination is power

but too much of anything

might not always be good

well i hope you succeed

and hope that you are still as beautiful as ever the next time i see you

but when will it be?

Radio Connection

2010-06-18T15:03:00.002+08:00

i'm in the computer lab
of my college
right now
i opened your blog
yes
like it or not
that's how much i stalk on your blog
at every single opportunity

you posted
i will respond
it's the first time that i've blogged
away from my comfort zone
which is my room

while i'm away from my comfort zone
you're away from yours too
he's away
but you feel connected
when he tells you to listen to the radio
and you feel sweet
when the radio plays both of you's favourite song

radio has became a connection for you two
if i can be the DJ
give me a call anytime
and i'll play your favourite song
and dedicate it
to both of you

Diet

2010-06-17T18:54:00.003+08:00

your second post of the day

says that you wanna go on a diet

nothing but oatmeals for 12 days

oats are good for health

okay it's a lame statement

everybody knows it

but nothing else but oats?

it's not gonna be a balanced diet

it's not gonna be healthy

i haven't seen you in 8 months

i don't know if you are really in need of a diet

but the last time i saw you

and those days when i can see you anytime

you're perfect

everytime i see you i really wanna tell you that

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

and i really mean it

right now i had no rights to say anything whatsoever

but in my mind i secretly wanna tell you...

TAKE CARE

i hope that while you plan to lose weight

you do remember that there are people

who don't even have that chance to lose weight

example

please don't think that you're fat and need to embark on a diet

when you're actually perfect

and the same goes to every other girls who thinks they're fat when they're actually not

just an advice which will never come to you

Beach

2010-06-17T18:46:00.003+08:00

he will be back on the 28th

at night

you will go to the beach

just you and him

which beach?

i will not know

he's like the son of a bitch

not worth of anyone's love

let alone yours

while i'm like the sun of a beach

giving the beach and everyone warmth

everybody but you

not because i don't want to give you

but because you rejected

The Road Not Taken

2010-06-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

your mood is like a swing

a while happy

a while moody

a while writing all the happy things in life

a while writing all the sad things in life

why you need to beg him to come back

is it really that you suffer so much without him

is it really that you cant live with him away

get on with it

in this world there's no one who couldn't live without another person

i once thought i wouldn't live without you

if it's true i'd be long gone by now

you chose him to be your boyfriend

now you're on your knees literally

wanting him not to leave you lonely

sulking about a boyfriend that had to be away from you for work

i don't understand

i will never understand

but have you ever thought

that you had a road not taken?

Sole Survivor

2010-06-13T14:16:00.003+08:00

I opened my eyes, can't recall how much time has gone passed, and barely had an idea about where am I, and how I got here. In an apartment room which is alien to me, a calender hanging on the wall, it says December 2012. Everything was dusty. The room is dark, there are no windows, with the only source of light, being some stray sunlight finding its way in from an air channel the size of a football. At least I know it is day. My sixth sense tells me to get the hell out of wherever I am right now. The doorknob is rusty. I struggled to open the door. But when I did, I nearly got choked with the amount of sawdust emitted from the doorframe. It must have been years since this door was opened.

The hallway is empty, the elevator got stuck in between two floors with the doors half-opened. I make my way down using the stairs. The receptionist area is empty. Spider webs covered the area. I pick up the phone. There are no line coverage whatsoever. I walk out to the streets, everything from buildings and pavements, to cars and lamp-posts, are covered with 'greeneries'. Creeping plants creep their way up to the top of the lamp-posts, and ferns grow out from the cracks of the buildings. I turned and looked down the other side of the street. It's the same. I found out.............................................. THAT I'M ALL ALONE.

It could have been

2010-06-09T00:32:00.003+08:00

a trip to sunway lagoon

had fun

had laughs

had thrills

had memories

it had also brought lots of thoughts

that i could have experienced all those

with you

a game of ice hockey

on pyramid ice

i stood above and watched

great speed

great balance

great talents

great techniques

seems great to be on ice

i never skated before

and i still never had

but

i'm sure would have had

had things not happened

Your Ignorance, My Motivation

2010-06-05T20:11:00.009+08:00

before anyone reads this

please read the post before this

titled 'love story'

it might take a longer while

but please

and i mean

PLEASE

dear

it was tough reading your story with him

really tough

it left me shattered into pieces

but what's more tough

is that after being shattered

i will still have to respond

its a promise to you

that i will respond to your every single post

even though

i know you aint gonna read it

it is perhaps the only promise i can keep for you now

but its the most i can do for you now

my dear

your dear did a lot for you

i never did anything much for you

but i never had the chance

things that would create a scenario for me to touch you

doesn't seem to happen at my time

if it had

i will make what he did for you

seem like kacang putih

ever since things happened

i cursed

i want his parents and family die cruelly

but not him

reason?

because i want him hurt

not you

if his dad and mom are dead

he will hurt

like hell

but if he died

you will hurt

that's why

i don't want him to

ever since things happened

i started a battle with god

in which i won

but not without a tough fight

god is a difficult opponent

full credit to him

at times i came close to being knocked out by him

although in the end i emerged victorious

but i also emerged with bruises

anyway

i'm still happy

that i'm able to prove

that i'm just that little bit better than god

now

here i am

still standing

tougher

thinking of it that way

you are not that bad for me

those things you put me through

made me tougher

for 16 months

you ignored me

erased me cleanly from your memory

you want me out of your life

you want to see no stuffs related to me

while you only want everything related to him

but did you know

the more you don't want to see me

the more i want to be seen by you

my dear

i wish you will come across me

in the future

when you flip through newspapers

when you read through magazines

when you turn on the tv

when you tuned in to the radio

when you surf the internet

when you drive by street advertisement billboards

yes

i want to be famous

and yes

i know lots of young people dreamt of being famous

but i'm different from them

i'm serious about it

and i'm working on it

my dreams include being

a radio dj

a television host

a movie director

a magazine editor

an event emcee

in short

being in the entertainment industry

and yes

all those gives me a chance

to reappear in your life

through those ways mentioned above

i want to direct a movie about your story with him

i want to write a song about us

if the opportunity comes

i will try

looking at it this way

ain't your ignorance a motivation for me?

and after i succeed

and if i were given the chance

to be recognized

by receiving an award for my job

and if i were to have the chance to say a few words onstage

after thanking those i wish to thank

i will reserve a special mention to you

yes

you see it right

in front of the television and live audiences

while hoping that you are watching

I WILL THANK YOU

for my success

because your ignorance have given me the extra motivation

for me to be who i am

because without your ignorance

i wouldn't have achieved what i achieved by then

and i mean it

Love Story

2010-06-05T18:57:00.006+08:00

first of all

a round of applause

from the bottom of my heart

that was your best post ever

i mean it

i have always only responded to your blog

but today

thanks to your jaw dropping post

i decided to break the rule

by directly quoting

your full blog post

a great story

don't just keep it to the both of you

it deserves more exposure

i will keep my promise

i will still respond to it

just give me some time

below

in orange

is directly quoted from your post

not a single alphabet edited

four in the morning
still not asleep
waiting
till you finish your shift
text me soon.. >.<

orange your favorite colour
you taught me to love it too
i changed a lot since i be with you
you always handled things with ease
no matter what i know i can count on you
its been 7 months
since we've been together

everything i do
i just thought of you
i PROMISE i will study hard
you said after my uni
we can be together
maybe shift to singapore
you will do saving
but now you'll work there
until i finish my education

it rained
remember that night
you came home late
after tea with your fwens
i wanted to go out
though you were tired
you just smiled
and beckon me to the car
it was pouring
long after midnight
we were still driving
around without direction
you still dont have license.. xD
it was so peaceful
looking at you beside me
listening to the pattering rain
i wanted ice cream
we drove to 7eleven
magnum almond for you
cornetto classic for me
:)

it was valentine

at ur house

stayed over
dad dropped us off
went gambling
your sister so sarcastic to me
you were in a temper
shouting at them
lying on your bed in the next room
i was scared
you broke their bed
then you walked in
took off your shirt
you looked tired
i felt sorry
i put you in this

i always wanted to go genting with you
i did
at chinese new year
three rooms
two to my cousins and aunts
one for you and me and dad
we ate kenny rogers that first night
watched a midnight movie
dad woke us the next day
wanted us to dabao
you got up immediately
dragged a sleepy me
and we packed food
outdoor theme park
i made you dizzy
pirate ship
you went back to the room to rest
the next day
we wanted to play superman
and haunted house and motion master
but dad bad sick
the clinic sent him to hospital
you took it in your stride
we rode down in the ambulance
to the nearest selayang hosp
we accompanied me all the time
we bought food
waiting in the awful red zone
dad was sent to icu
you stayed with me that night
i was so glad you did
for the next two weeks
you practically lived at my hse
everyday you went up to the hosp with me
direct the correct road there
what we were have done without you?

i was so scared
dad may die any sec
all those bills and loans to pay
you comforted me
i can remember your text
even now
you said its okay not to have any parents
they will leave us someday
you said i could live with you
you will nego with your parents
and work hard for us
you said its okay not to have hse and car
your dad bankrupted
your family dont have car and hse either

that night at station 1
partying with fwens
suddenly they left
dad couldnt pick me up
alone and awkward
stuck in a table of strangers
i texted you
you just back from singapore
never reached your hse
you came for me already
i was so happy to see you
you said will accompany me
till my dad pick me up
then you drew out bars of chocolate
from your bag
my fav dark chocolate
staring at you
i wasnt your girlfriend then
but you were always there
appear miracleously
every time i needed you

you asked me for the yellow string

that i got when i went ot temple

hopeful smile on you face

held out you hand

i couldnt resist you

i tied it on you hand

you never took it off

until i got something to replace it

all those nights
you sneaked into my house
after midnight
you werent allowed to stay over then
you walked for hours
in the dark of the night
so late and all alone
all the way from kampung jawa to mine
then i will silently open the door
you were sweating so heavily
then you accompanied me
till dawn then you took bus back
you went to so much effort
just for me

that time we worked together
you will take the earliest bus to my hse
sleep in the living room
with me beside you
then we wakey
i prepare for work
and we make breakfast
i like to jia jia make you eat a lot
we even made 3 different breakfast at one morning
you ate everything
then we will make lunch
packed in tupperware
to eat at work
we were broke then
we made a record
survived on rm50 in two weeks

that time you bought rose for me

from the way walking from terminal to my hse

the shopkeeper put perfume

you knew i couldnt stand perfume

so you stupid stupid

put your nose to the rose

sniffed all the way to my hse

your nose was running

by the time you reached

temporary lost sense of smell

looking tenderly at you

touched

my blek rubbed off on you

i used to blek all the time

now you blek all the time

i wanted kisses

you blek

i wanted you to say you miss me

you blek

i wanted you to sing elephant lullaby

you blek

fine i deserve it

after all the time i blek at you too

hehe

the first time we on phone

i wanted you to sing

i could still remember the song

ni shi wo zui shen ai de ren

you were so shy then

you even blushed at that time

that time i naughty

at starbucks

you came when i wanted you to

we werent in a relationship then

you looked away

i whispered

DEAR

just to see you blush

you were stunned i could see

that night

when you hugged me

your cheeks are burning

when you kissed me

you blushed too

you walked me home

and took my hand

there and then

our fate was sealed

my respond

will be in

as soon as possible

just give me some time

i will try my best

to match your post

trust me

The Journeyman

2010-06-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

there he goes

there he goes again

left you

a month

you will miss him

he will miss you

its like that

when you fall in love

with a journeyman

Jen in Hood

2010-06-03T00:40:00.004+08:00

he came back

and soon

he's gonna leave again

i don't know where to

because you didn't write

i don't know how long

because you wrote you don't know as well

for the time that he's here

you watched a movie

robin hood

for your info

i haven't watch it

during the show

in the darkened cinema

you curled up to him

you held his hands

lying on his body

and you felt happiness surround you

you even had dinner together

he made you laugh throughout the meal

is he really that funny

or it is because when two persons love each other

everything a person say or do

will look funny or cute to the other person

i knew what you ate

thanks for writing it

you made me feel hungry too

alright

my bad

this should be emo

why am i putting in my sense of humour

perhaps that's just who i am

a person with humour

and that's what a person you are missing

robin hood does not have a hood over his head

but sometimes i wish i have a hoodie over mine

sometimes i picture myself

wearing a dark coloured jacket

with a hoodie over my head

wearing a cap

wear shades that covers my eyes

with a face full of untrimmed beard

sitting at a corner

watching you

and him

i wish to be at two rows behind you

when you curled up to him in the cinema

so that i can watch a show

in which you are the lead actress

while he's the main actor

i wish to be at the other corner of the restaurant

silently observing

when you have your dinner with him

and shock you

by secretly paying for both of your dinners

then turn around and walk away swiftly

so that when the waiter goes to your table

to point to you the person who footed your bill

i'm no longer there

i might be sad seeing all your sweet moments

very very sad

but my shades will cover my sad eyes

and people will still thought

what a cool and stylish guy this is

could all this happen

will i be the mystery man?

will be the jen in hood?

The Shed

2010-05-30T23:17:00.005+08:00

the historical shed

and those old trees

by the football field

of smjk kwang hua

have been destroyed

to build a new building

nature and history

had to make way

for development

my sweat are all over the roots of the trees

and all under the roofs of the shed

its the place

i rest

and chill

after playing like a tiger

on the football field

for five golden years of my life

great memories there

the shed

was there since my dad was a student in the same school

and those trees

are there since none of us were born

they represent history

and glory

of the school

people protested

people complained

but

what's done is done

it might be gone physically

but it will go down the memory lane

of each of us who studied there

just like you

things might have happened

but you will never fade away

from my memory

dedicated to: 巴生光华国中天祥亭和草场边的老树，美好回忆，永在记忆

Biography of a Footballer (fictional)

2010-05-29T01:41:00.006+08:00

my name is simao jenson

i'm a footballer

currently a free agent

unattached to any club

i'm a striker

my job

is to score goals

in 2007

i signed for real madrid

my coach is joss moreno

i find him a very easy going person

working with him is easy

shared jokes on the training ground

just like great friends

moreno plays with only one striker

and when i signed for the club

wayne ronny has already established himself

as moreno's top striker

i'm his substitute

and i'm satisfied with it

i consider ronny as a pal

he is 3 years younger than me

i knew him when we played together at newcastle united

although i'm satisfied with my position initially

after some time

i realized that i have the urge to play

but since ronny is already established and he's a friend of mine

i decided to patiently wait for my chance

there are times when ronny had some bad patches

he lost his form and aren't scoring goals

moreno consulted me

i had mixed feelings

i wanted to have a chance to play

but in the end

i convinced moreno to give ronny some oppotunities to prove himself

as i'm confident in ronny's ability

then one day in early 2009

moreno finally ran out of patience with ronny's constant poor performances

moreno sold ronny to another club

i thought

its my chance to prove myself to the coach

i was so eager to impress my coach

that in one match

i made a very bad tackle

and referee decided to give me a red card

moreno was not impressed by my actions

he decided to promote kelvin benjema

a younger player from the youth team

to be ronny's replacement

i talked to moreno

and told him that i should be given more time to prove myself on the pitch

he gave me a warning that i should discipline myself

meanwhile

benjema did not perform well

and was dropped by moreno after just a few games

this time around

moreno chooses michael nevo

another young player from the youth team

to be his striker

i felt disillusioned

i complained to the media again and again

this time moreno was angered

he sent me to the reserves team

and told me not to complain anymore

or else my contract will be terminated

and i will be released from the club

like benjema

nevo did not play well

so moreno decided to drop him

now

i no longer wished to be the first choice striker

but i hoped to at least be returning to the first team

then

out of nowhere

moreno decided to sign jack wilson

an experienced striker of the same age with me

that shocked me so much

because i never thought that moreno would sign him

after several more months in the reserves

i lauched another attack on moreno

by criticizing him over and over again

for not giving me a chance time after time

by the end of 2009

my contract was terminated

i permanently left real madrid

and due to the experience i had at the club

i lost my passion for football

i do not plan to return to playing football for a period

even if there are coaches that wanted to sign me

hence i'm still unattached to any football club up till today

instead i share my experiences on my blog

and my biography

*if you thought i finally came out with a post which is not about you

sorry to frustrate you again

because

this is still about you

and all the things that had happened

just that i used a football story

to bring them out

all characters are fictional

their names edited from actual footballers

i'm like simao jenson the footballer

you're like joss moreno the coach

and your boyfriendsssss: wayne ronny, kelvin benjema, michael nevo, and jack wilson

Synthesize

2010-05-27T15:41:00.002+08:00

fireflies

vanilla twilight

hello seattle

hot air balloon

strawberry avalanche

have you heard of those?

they are songs

from owl city

a one man band

sounds lonely

perhaps that guy felt lonely too

and its this sense of loneliness

that made his songs

sound so peaceful

but the lyrics

are about his sweetheart

who left the world

he wrote his songs

at night

when he suffered from insomnia

synthesizer

a unique musical instrument

he used in his songs

to create the uniquely peaceful beats

that we heard in his songs

and so it seems

you synthesized as well

words from you are aligned to the left

while words from him aligned to the right

two persons became one

and shared a blog

it became a place

for two of you

to show your love

for each other

but you don't know

they are all under

my watchful eyes

and you don't know

that i have responded

to your every single post

right here

and

where are those bitter posts

seems like you deleted them

just like you deleted me from you

you want your love to be perfect

or at least that's what your blog looks like

isn't it

you thought its such a private place

for you two

and nobody else reads it

what you do not know

is that there's another two who does

and another person

who i gave a VIP pass

to your blog

we might not have contacted for more than a year

but

i still know a lot about you

that picture

that kiss

i looked at it

and i'll take it

no choice

because he's your boyfriend

but what tastes sweet in your mouth

tastes sour in mine

My middle name is Extreme

2010-05-26T15:36:00.002+08:00

just so you know

my words are getting extreme

so you slept with him huh?

you seem to keep emphasizing

that he hugged you to sleep

that you felt warm when he was sleeping beside you

that you listened to his breath next to you

that you would kiss him when you see him still sleeping on your bed when you're back from school

and that you missed him when he does not sleep with you

i got a suggestion

why not just go all the way

and write

that you had sex with him?

This couldn't be more contrasting! (Warning: Strong language! Read with care.)

2010-05-25T23:44:00.002+08:00

There you go

Feeling good

Writing about those happy things

And those happy memories

Not too long ago

You were sulking aren't you

Looking at what you said

Makes me wanna laugh

Not happy laughs

Not evil laughs

Just a laugh

With no feelings attached

Oh man

I could be the first person to ever laugh without any feelings

What i laugh about

Is about contrasts

And believe me

Things couldn't be more contrasting than this

Don't believe?

I'll prove it to you

And make you believe

And perhaps

Laugh without feelings

Exactly like what i did

You said

Just looking at his eyes

Simply makes you wanna kiss him

Looking at him walk in front of you

Makes you wanna hug him tight from behind

And whisper to his ears

I love you

You wanna know what i say?

Well i say

Just looking at his eyes

Simply makes me wanna kill him

Looking at him walk in front of me

Makes me wanna stab him in his back with the sharpest knife

And whisper to his ears

Enjoy your last breath

I would also say to you

Just looking at your eyes

Simply makes me wanna kiss you

Looking at you walk in front of me

Makes me wanna hug you tight from behind

And whisper to your ears

I love you

And you

Just looking at my eyes

Simply makes you wanna kill me

Looking at me walk in front of you

Makes you wanna stab me in my back with the sharpest knife

And whisper to my ears

Enjoy your last breath

Even if you don't have this feeling

He might have

If he slaughtered me

And i shed all my blood

The ground will feel honoured

That my blood were shed on them

If i slaughtered him

And he shed all his blood

There's only one possibility

The ground felt polluted and insulted

I participated Earth Hour

I love the earth

So if i don't kill him

Its because i don't want to pollute the earth

Contrasting huh?

Waiting on the world to change

2010-05-25T01:30:00.002+08:00

it's the title of a song

by john mayer

he's waiting on the world to change

i dont wish for that much

i'm just waiting for one person to change

not the whole world

or is it?

you were waiting for his texts

i am waiting for yours

just because you waited a little longer for his texts

you sulked

what about me

i waited for 15 months

but its ok

i understand

and also

i could text you at all hours

if only i could

with him

you need to learn independence

perhaps its good for you

but you dont have to

if you were with me

sometimes i ask myself

why you dont give me a hell of a chance

when the choice is obvious

perhaps you haven't seen my good yet

and perhaps i will never have the chance to show it to you

but through it all

i came out with something

some things are not meant to be

i play sports

and in sports

we learn things about life

so often

we see a better team lost

or a weaker player won

that's what sports is all about

and that is also what the world is all about

certain things

are just not meant to be

no matter how good you are

i said

i am waiting for you to change your mind and take a look at me

but the world is full of things like that

does that also mean

that i'm waiting for the world to change?

You need me, and I love you, I seriously do...

2010-05-12T00:52:00.003+08:00

alright

this is getting serious

you wrote about death

you said you battle to sleep each night

you said you will embrace death

you see it as a form of release

you said several times your vision went black

you said you are dizzy and clinging for support

yet you said you are smiling when those things happened

you said you know your body more than anyone

you said if anything happens to you

you want to say to him

'farewell and i love you'

you put a smiley after that

all the things you said

i wonder

is it just your aggravation

is it just your way of writing

is it true about your experience

is it true about what is happening to you

if all the things you said

are really true

i do not wish to be there by your side

i do not wish to take his place in your heart

not anymore

i do not wish for that much

i know where i stand

and its impossible

all i wish is to be able to offer some words of comfort

but how

tell me how to approach you back

you ignored

you rejected

all the ways that i have tried

tell me what to do

how i wished that you chose me

how i wished that i am yours

and you would not have to endure

what you are enduring now

the pain of ignorance

from the one you love

how i wished

that you are reading my blog

you need me

and i love you

i seriously do

Le Sulk

2010-05-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

le sulk

is french

it means

a person who sulks a lot

a person who is sulking all the time

i sulk a lot

but only in my blog

what i sulk about

it obvious

for those who have been reading my blog

and its the same thing that i have sulk about

for over 14 months

people must have been mesmerized

by the longevity

of my sulking

about the same thing

how did i manage that

i dont know

some say

get a life

i dont care

cause i love to sulk

in my blog

but certainly

not in real life

at least allow me a place to sulk

not such a big request

isnt it

i sulk

but you sulk too

you sulk about your boyfriend not being with you these days

you sulk about you missing his warmth

you sulk about not having him beside you when you sleep

you sulk about having no one to be your listener now

how i wish i could let you know

that i'm still very much alive

and i could be the one

to give you the things that no one else can

while

he cant give you this

he cant give you that

i can say

i can give you this

i can give you that

i confess

i still love you

dont ask me how i know all these stuffs about you

but i really know

Irony Tres

2010-05-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

after following the trend

by having a second episode of irony

i decided to go one better

by making it a trilogy

like x-men trilogy

with irony tres

tres

as in

one two three four

uno dos tres cuatro

i know you want me

you know i want cha

sound familiar huh

my previous two posts were all about irony

if you are still unclear of what the hell irony is

let me explain it

in english at its simplest form

irony means

something which is insulting

in football

steven gerrard vowed to help liverpool beat chelsea two weeks ago

ironically

he was the one who gifted chelsea the victory

in science

the universe is way further than the oceans

ironically

scientists seem to know more about galaxies which are lightyears away

than the ocean which is just several kilometers at its deepest

in automobiles

toyota prius was created to bring an innovative concept towards cars

ironically

it was on the headlines because it brings a lot of problems towards drivers

my irony trilogy started with a short and powerful statement in 'irony'

then i further elaborated and explained it in 'irony 2'

now i want to end with a bang

with yet another short but powerful statement

particularly

to her

you used to know all my deepest secrets

even my dirty little secrets

now you probably do not even know whether i am dead or alive

but

i bet you would not even care about it

am i right?

or am i right?

the answer is obvious here

irony

is scary

Irony 2

2010-05-03T01:31:00.003+08:00

it seems like a trend

everything has its continuation

iron man 2

ip man 2

so i will follow the trend

with my own

irony 2

you see

the world is full of irony

from the simplest things in life

to the most complicated things ever thought of

irony is everywhere

its just a matter of whether one notices it

or how one notices it

google 'irony' under images

among the first few results

you will come across a picture

which i think is a masterpiece

it shows a fitness center

with stairs and escalators leading up to it

ironically

you see people heading to the fitness center

using the escalators

and not the stairs

if you are health conscious enough to go to a fitness center

you should be health conscious enough

to be able to take that few steps up the stairs

rather than taking those lazy escalators

ironical

doesn't it

irony is sometimes hard to detect

yet too common to be mentioned everytime you see it

but the word 'ironically' would earn you some language or grammar marks

if you use it in your essay

as a conjunction

after this is posted

everyone could possibly see this

as long as they drop by my blog

but the one main person this blog is intended to

i believe

is also the one person who has the least possibility to see this

once again

this is ironical

Irony

2010-05-01T13:33:00.002+08:00

do you know what is irony?

the one person who used to know most things about me

is the one person who knows least about me now

that's what i call irony

TRY

2010-05-01T00:24:00.002+08:00

try to imagine if he refuses to reply your messages

try to imagine if he blocks you on msn

try to imagine if he deletes you from facebook

try to imagine if he ignores your apology and scolds you further

try to imagine if he tells you to get out of his life

try to imagine if he deletes you from his memory

try to imagine if he treats you the way you treated me way back last year

try to put yourself in my shoes and feel what i feel

if only you would try

but you don't have to

because he won't treat you that way

because he loves you

and more importantly

you love him

sometimes

we just have to put ourselves in others shoes

in order to understand why they will react in the way they reacted

if only everyone will put themselves in others shoes

and think

not only in my case

but many other things

would turn out to be much better

if the attacking country put themselves in the shoes of the country being attacked

wars won't exist

if the rich put themselves in the shoes of the poor

food won't be wasted

if all drivers put themselves in other drivers' shoes

accidents won't happen

i read the blog of the girlfriend of an accident victim

it was hard to read

or should i say heartbreaking to read

i am a guy

with tears in my eyes

after i read it

if only everyone would put themselves in others shoes

if only you would try imagine being in my position

just try

Return of the Magnificent Jentzon

2010-04-28T02:23:00.004+08:00

yes i'm back

6 months after my last post

with a new style

no longer straight-to-the-point

photos and pictures are out of the question

bid goodbye to my 'in-your-face' blogging style

and follow the trend

to blog in a reserved way

to say some

and not to say some

always indicating things

but keep people guessing

perhaps this is the trend

in which i call 'emo blogging'

you see

everything happens for a reason

i returned for a reason

a reason which i don't wish to say

but i hope you can guess

i've been through the worst

but i clawed back up

i do things for a reason

but the reasons

could be good or evil

even in between

i'm a planner

always planning my next move

i'm also a destroyer

always destroying my plans

what i'm gonna do next

i don't know

but keep in mind

although i might not carry out any moves

but in my mind

i'm always planning

Hiatus

2009-10-25T22:00:00.002+08:00

This blog will be on a hiatus. In other words, hibernate, for an unknown amount of time due to unforseen cinrcumstances.

I'm completely devastated today... I'll leave this post with something I wanna say to someone.

Who is the one who is there for you when you have relationship problems last time?
Who is the one who accompanied you when you are bored?
Who is the listener to your complains?
Who is the one who stayed on your side and give advices during your hard times?
Who is the one you called 'kor kor'?
I never forget what you did for me.
You are my loyal friend, my perfect listener.
My 'mei mei'...
I'm sorry for hurting you seven months ago.
Please think about it...

To my readers,
I'm sure that the someone the above words is aimed for won't see this.
But don't leave comments asking me questions of what happened.
Comments to show support will be appreciated.
I'm completely devastated...

Life sucks!
My luck sucks!
I don't blame that someone for putting me in misery.
I blame GOD for giving me such fate!

Big game player?

2009-10-25T02:30:00.002+08:00

It's 2:30am and I'm blogging here. Just finished watching 3 football matches in a row. Phew! It's been a while since I did that.

This morning, or should I say yesterday morning (Saturday morning), I went to play football at Acmar field. Planned to go Kwang Hua but the guard won't even let current students in, let alone former students. Heard that the principal don't want too much of co-curiculum for his students wor... -_-"

This is the first time in almost 2 months that I've played football on a real field. Since that day I said wanna take a break from football, I've only played futsal, and once in a while played 'mini-football' on the basketball court opposite my house. Really long time don't have that 'grassy' feeling under my legs already. lol

One thing, the condition of the Acmar field sucks! The side of the field near to the Acmar Kindergarden is okay, but the other side nearer to the road is almost not a football field. Aiks. I surveyed that part before the game and I knew I won't step onto that side of the pitch.

For the first half, we attacked towards the better side of the field. So yeah! I've only attacked and never defend at all for the first half. Our opponents, from what I heard, are one of the best set of players in Form 4 this year. We led 5-0 after the first half... Not quite sure of that, maybe they just had an off day, or maybe they are attacking on the bad side of the field. But really, we exploited some of their weaknesses.

I didn't play the second half, coz its kinda hot already, and I started to feel a bit of 'lagness'. Long time no play football, sure will lag a bit lar, get tired fast. So it's their turn to attack on the good side of the field while we get the opposite. The game ended 9-2...

Okay, pro people won't get so many goals in football matches but that's what we are, always lots of goals.

I scored a goal! A fluke goal by the way, but it's still a goal! I wanted to cross the ball. None of my teammates gets to it. I heard their defenders told their goalie to let go of the ball for a goal kick. So everyone just stood there and look at the ball. But wait... It didn't go out. It went in! Goal!!! I don't how to react at first. Kinda don't believe that their goalkeeper just let my poor cross went into the goal.

Haha! Once again I scored in a big match. Hmm... I not sure lar, but I find my record in big matches (where there are 2 teams playing a 'competitive' match with first half and second half) pretty good. When I just play in those 'cincai-cincai' matches, I don't always score goals. But when it comes to big matches, I will play better, sometimes even score goals! Maybe it's the motivation, but surely there's quite a lot of luck in there too. xD

Then again, I played significantly less football these days. Those 'cincai-cincai' matches doesn't appeal me anymore. Not 'hang price', just lazy to play. I will only play in those odd 'big' matches that occur once in a while. Looking forward to challenge today's opponents again.

Hehe... I've changed from that regular football player, to the occasional football player. No longer a football fanatic or football crazy. That's my image to some over the past few years. Haiz... Just looking to shred of that tag. I am not a football crazy! :)

2011

2009-10-21T19:24:00.002+08:00

Yeah! I mean 2011. Please don't thought that I wanted to mean '2012' the movie and that I've mis-typed my title. But why 2011???

Flip the papers today (or for some, you don't even need to flip coz it's on the first page), you will see something like this: Science and Maths in BM from 2011 onwards. In July this year, the Education Ministry said this plan will be from 2012 onwards. Now it's carried forward for a year. Quite a significant amount of people disagreed about this plan at first place. Carried forward a year? Oh well...

I decided to interview a person who is one of the many people who disagreed with this plan in order to get an in-depth view of this issue. And the person is......

ME!

Oh... Not again!!! (For those who don't know what I mean by 'not again', please check back my final post in September)

Q: You disagree with teaching Science and Maths in BM?
A: Erm... There's always good and bad in everything... And I think...

Q: One word, yes or no?
A: Please allow me to finish my sentence lar...

Q: I said, in one word, yes or no?
A: Okay... Yes. I disagree.

Q: That's 4 words.
A: Oh whatever...

Q: Why disagree?
A: First of all, English is an international language. Learning Science and Maths in English will benefit students in the long run. Especially for those ambitious ones, if they work overseas, of course must speak English lar! Imagine in a overseas conference, a Malaysian scientist goes on stage and says 'Tabung Uji'. Oh my god, how do you expect everyone to understand that? Of course must say 'Test Tube'. Right? Science and Maths in English was introduced with the point of improving the standard of English. And now they say they will revert back to Science and Maths in BM and will continue to improve the standard of English? Ain't that like slapping own face?

Q: But results in the past few years has shown that the standard of English has not improved, and in fact students' performance in Science and Maths has dropped.
A: That, I think, has got something to do with the teachers. Teachers need time to adjust to teaching these 2 subjects in English. And it takes time. They started teaching these 2 subjects in English in 2003, and so happened that I went into form 1 in 2003, so I'm in the first batch of students under this plan. Honestly, I can see that some teachers are still not up to the standard of teaching these 2 subjects in English yet. Just when teachers might be starting to get used to this plan, the Education Ministry has decided to revert back to the old formula again.

Q: It is also known that the cost of teaching Science and Maths in English over the years doesn't produce equivalent results in students' performances. That's also a reason why the plan is reverted.
A: But now that the plan is reverted. Ain't that requires a high cost as well? Textbooks has to be re-written, teachers need to be retrained. And try to think from a teacher's perspective. Aren't they gonna feel that its a waste for them for training to teach in English? For some who just started teacher training in the past few years, they might have to throw away what they have learnt in English and start all over again in BM. And let's not forget the time and cost of re-training.

Q: Bahasa Malaysia is our official language. Are you forgetting that?
A: I didn't say it should be neglected. We have Sejarah and Geografi in BM. That is reasonable as in those 2 subjects, basically we learn about our own country. But for Science and Maths, it's an international knowledge.

Q: At the start of the interview, you said something about there's good and bad in everything... Does that mean you actually feel that this new plan has it's good point as well? Can you explain that?
A: Hah! Now you want me to explain!

Q: Well then just do so! Okay... My bad...
A: The thing I find good about this plan is that Science and Maths in primary schools will be fully taught in mother language. Primary students will now need not learn these 2 subjects in 2 languages. This is something I would agree.

Q: So can you tell me, in your mind, what is the perfect plan for teaching these 2 subjects?
A: Ever since the first day, my opinion is that Science and Maths being teached in the mother language in primary schools, and English in secondary schools. This would enable students to have a basic about these subjects in their familiar language, and then build on from there with an international language.

Q: In other words, are you saying that you have been studying in your so called 'perfect formula'?
A: Absolutely, I studied these 2 subjects in my mother tongue for primary school, and then in English in secondary school. And I'm proud of it, as I will now go into the history books of Malaysia for being 1 of only 10 batches of students to ever being in this 'perfect formula'! Haha! ^^

Q: ......

(The opinions in this post are solely the writer's.)

My Kwang Hua Journey (Part 2)

2009-10-19T15:41:00.004+08:00

Its time to rewind again. My high school memories. Coming next in my personal best memories, it has got to be FOOTBALL!!!

4th: GOOOAAALLL!!!

The year was 2005, when I was in form3, we held a football tournament between classes, and my class happens to be the organizer for that year's event.

It was my class' first match, I'm playing on the left-wing, kind of forgotten what happened, but I know it was chaotic in front of our opponent's goal, so many players in there, I was there, and I saw my team-mate had a shot, and I saw their goalkeeper punched the ball away, away to where??? Towards me!!! The goal was just around 2 meters away from me, without second thoughts, more like a reflex action, I put out my left leg, kicked the ball, and it went into the net... well, no nets, just a goal-frame. Its the first goal of the match.

It turns out to be our last as well. We went on and lose the match 2-1. But we went on and on in the tournament, all the way until the final, and we got beaten in the final. And me, I got a runner-up's trophy. Here's the picture of the trophy...
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Err... No need lar... Just a small piece of silver-coloured plastic trophy anyway.

Why is the goal so memorable for me? Well... I've played football since primary 6, I scored goals too. But up until then, I have never participated in competitions of any form. Yeah alright, this is just a very small form3 inter-class competition. Nevertheless, its still my first competition! Furthermore, I scored the first goal in my first ever competitive match! Woohoo. ^^

Coming soon: My 3rd favourite moment of my high school life.

Weekend of Mine

2009-10-11T14:00:00.003+08:00

Lots of things to blog about this weekend. Can't choose which 1 to blog about, so I blog it all! It will take me hours to write if I decided to write it all in detail, so below are things that I feel blog-worthy over my weekend, compiled, compressed, and straight to the point. And it shows multiple sides of my life!

Chapter 1: Movie-goer

Yesterday I went to BBK Jusco to watch 'Sorority Row'. Hot girls in a thriller story, it's movie at its best! Haha.

From usual people point of view: The killer must be crazy. Such a good student, destroyed his future by killing so many people cruely for his girlfriend who didn't even tell him to do so.

From my point of view: Although he is cruel for killing so many people, putting his seemingly bright future on the line, but think about it, he did it because he loved his girlfriend a lot and don't want anybody other than the 2 of them to know her dark secret. Okay, I'm not saying guys must murder people to show his love for his girlfriend. Lolz. But to girls, think about it, that's how much a guy can love a girl. (I'm saying this for all the guys out there!!!)

Chapter 2: Politcal Awareness

Do you think that MCA is making chinese angry? (try figuring out something in the question.) Ooops... But finally, the power struggle between Ong and Chua has come to an end, or at least, that's my hope.

Based on yesterday's voting results, both of them are to leave their respective posts. Giving a chance for a new leadership. Both of them are capable, both of them are worthy of their previous posts, it's a waste that both of them had to leave, but it's also a fact that both of them can't work together anymore, and if either 1 were to stay, there will be a group of party members who will be against him.

And so the best, although harsh, solution for this whole problem, is for both of them to step down. This is to prevent further cracks in the party.

Soon a new leader will be decided. Not sure how it will be decided. Not sure who will be the leader. But for sure the foremost important job for this new leader will be to unite the party, and earn back the Chinese's support for MCA.

Chapter 3: Sportsman

This morning I went to a 6km run organised by Centro Mall. My first, and perhaps, only official run this year.

Last month we had a mini-run as well, along the same route. I used that as a benchmark for today. Last time around, I finished it in 40 minutes. I've set my target to finish in 30 minutes this time.

Tough one... Anyway, did I achieve my target......?

The answer is...

Sadly, no. Still some way off. My time today is 38 minutes. Got improvement though. So nvm lar... Run for fun only mar. Some more got a certificate, not bad already lar... Hehe.

Just train 2 times over the past week, yet already I managed to slash my time by 2 minutes. What if I train regularly??? Man I got potential!!! xD

But no matter how, it's still no match for the elite runners. In fact, nowhere near them. The champion for my open category finished the race in merely 17 minutes! Less than half of my time. Soon after, got lucky draw. Okay, end of story for this. You know what I mean...

Chapter 4: Food-aholic

Who says skinny people don't like to eat? I enjoy food and I eat a lot of them! But I only enjoy food that I enjoy. Man what am I saying?

Okay... I don't enjoy pork. Fact or fiction? Fact! Not only me, my parents too doesn't enjoy too much of pork. Bah Kut Teh... Usually we eat it without pork. (Shoot me if you want here) Today, we ate it with pork. More importantly, I ate pork, lots of them!!!

Maybe some might still be unimpressed. Cheh! I'm Chinese mar, some more I'm from Klang, the origin of Bah Kut Teh, eat Bak Kut Teh very suprising meh?

Here's something special. This Bak Kut Teh is called 'String-tied Bah Kut Teh' (宝香绑线肉骨茶). Got strings 1 ler... clap clap*

The location is inside Centro Mall. Yeah, me and my dad went back home after the run and then go back there again. The boss turns out to be my mom's cousin brother. Its special because of the 'strings'. What are the strings for? I'm not sure. I didn't get to see the strings coz they cut it before serving. Maybe because today there's too many customers, so they too busy to cut it after serving onto our table. But my dad saw the 'strings' before. Lolz.

Well... I judge Bah Kut Teh by its soup. And I can say this is good! If not tasty then won't open another few more shops lar... (There's one in Berkeley, and another in Puchong I think...)

Worth a try! But got service charge ya!!! Because got air-cond mar, you know...

Freedom

2009-10-09T14:55:00.003+08:00

Freedom!!!

I'm done with my one and only mid-term paper. Well... basically it seems like freedom for me everyday coz I never ever get tensed up before even the major final exams, let alone a mid-term paper. I'm always on relax mode. Doing last minute studying... Hey I don't call myself 'Last Minute King' for nothing ok? Not trying to brag here lar... But really, its not that I don't wanna get serious, the fact is that I have an inability to get serious! You ask me to get all bumped up for an exam, reading this... memorizing that... I can't do it. Some say I very 'geng' because everytime I don't seem to study much but yet I still pass all my subjects, but I see that as to why I merely passed my exams everytime and not achieving better. Anyway... Pass is good enough for me. The higher the hopes, the bigger the chance for an upset. :)

Time to chill...

And for once I've changed the song on my playlist. Err... 'Diary of Jane' seems a bit too hard for my mood now. Lolz. So I share my mood with a song in which the chorus is the easiest chorus to get stuck in ones head. xD

'Shawty's like a melody in my head
that I can't keep out
got me singing like
na na na na everyday
it's like my iPod's stuck replay, replay-ay-ay-ay......'

Formula One Merry-Go-Round

2009-10-08T17:03:00.005+08:00

Alright! The so-called 'worst-kept secret' of Formula One is not a secret anymore. My favourite F1 driver Fernando Alonso is going to Ferrari next year. This sparked the start of a driver 'merry-go-round' among the F1 teams for next season.

Today, the man to replace Alonso at Renault has also been revealed. He's Robert Kubica, who was forced to look for a new team after his current team, BMW, decided to pull out of F1 after this season.

Fernando Alonso

Robert Kubica

And those are two confirmed moves to date. But all the signs point to Ferarri's Kimi Raikkonen is moving to McLaren to partner Lewis Hamilton.

Wow! If that turns out to be true, then next year will surely be a blockbuster year for F1. We will have the top 4 drivers (in terms of driving skills) driving for the top 2 teams! The 4 drivers I mean here are Alonso (Ferarri), Fillipe Massa (Ferarri), Hamilton (McLaren), and Raikkonen (McLaren). F1's biggest rivals Alonso and Hamilton can once again have a 'bloody' fight for the driver's championship. Haha! Also let's not forget the 2 drivers that has turned F1 around this season: Jenson Button (Brawn GP) and Sebastian Vettel (Red Bull Racing). For sure they will also be in the hunt for the driver's championship.

Jenson Button

Don't forget, next year we will also have our own Malaysian team in F1, called Lotus 1Malaysia F1 Team. Okay... No matter how many tax-payers out there grumbling about the government burning their money in this sport, I'm fully behind the government's decision to join this sport. Simply because I will finally have a team to cheer for next season! Hehe... Perhaps I'm saying this because I don't have to pay any tax right now. But hey... who cares? Since I ain't paying any tax, so just enjoy watching a Malaysian team in F1 lar! From the viewpoint of an F1 fan, this is just gonna be exciting. >.<

Haha! Although this season hasn't ended, I'm already looking forward to next season.

Anyway, here are some of my blind predictions for next season's F1:

~ Alonso to pip his deadly rival Hamilton to the world title.

~ Raikkonen once again had a bad year and loses his passion for F1, then walk away from the sport to join rally racing

~ Lotus 1MF1 to finish ahead of other 3 new teams.

~ Fairuz Fauzy to drive for Lotus 1MF1.

~ And his partner, one of the three drivers below:

Alex Wurz

Christian Klien

Anthony Davidson

Untitled

2009-10-07T13:24:00.002+08:00

Aiks... Leg pain now. Why??? Bcoz I went jogging yesterday. What??? Yeah, jogging...

Haha. Went to stadium to jog yesterday. Wanna prepare for this Sunday's Centro 6km run. Well... Long time no exercise already. That's why leg will pain after jogging. lol

Luckily today and tomorrow no class...

But Friday exam!!! Haven't prepare also... Dunno what to read ler...

My Kwang Hua Journey (Part 1)

2009-10-04T16:01:00.002+08:00

Hello! This is the first of a series of posts about my secondary school (SMJK Kwang Hua) life. Fisrt of all, why am I doing this? Haha. Because this coming 31st of October, I would have graduated from secondary school for a full 2 years! It just seems like I graduated yesterday by the way. Time flies... No no, time teleports, coz it happened in a blink of an eye. xD

No doubts about it, looking back, I had lots of memories in Kwang Hua, good ones and bad ones, everybody does.

I took time out to think about it, and share with you guys here, my top five memories of my 5-year journey in Kwang Hua.

5th: Skipping My Add Maths Exam.

Throughout the final 2 years of secondary school, the subject 'Add Maths' has been my worst nightmare. Studying in Science class, I had no interest in that subject whatsoever. During Add Maths lesson, I don't listen to what the teacher teaches, neither do I ever did his homework. And also, my Add Maths teacher happened to be my form teacher. (Paiseh ya, Mr. Lim. Hehe.)

I tried to catch up with the subject, once, and it was totally against my will. But somehow in the end, my instinct ruled. I can't understand this subject, and I told myself: 'Oh come on! This is not my subject. It never was, it never will be.'

I quit Add Maths. I decided to drop that subject for SPM.

In form 4, I sat for the mid-year and year-end exams as I can't drop the subject at that time. My marks for that two exams are 2% and 1% respectively. Don't get shocked here, the percentages are really out of 100%. Phew! Luckily I don't have to live that nightmare all over again in form 5, coz I managed to drop the subject.

One memorable thing for me that happened during this whole 'Add Maths Nightmare' was that I skipped an Add Maths exam while I was in form 4! I remember that day, there's a government trial exam for the subject. The day before, me and one of my buddy, Sern Tat, had planned to skip that exam. Early in the morning, I reached school before him. I waited for him at the pondok, and then we sneaked out! Hehe. We went for breakfast at a nearby mamak, changed our clothes, then go to a cyber cafe, then walked to Klang Parade to kill some time. We even planned our route carefully to avoid meeting some 'obstacles'. Lolz!

Both of us did a silly thing. Guess what, we changed back our clothes in an open garden before we went back to school! Anyway, it's an empty garden and basically no one saw us changing.

After that, when school dismissal time is up, we walked back to school. My transport came to pick me as if I just had another day in school! Shhh... xD

By the way, I'm a good boy. This is one of just very very very few times that I've ponteng sekolah, and my only time ponteng exam. I know I'm wrong, but...... okay... >.<

Haha! That's my number five secondary school memory. There's more to come and more posts to follow! ^^

(Note to my buddy Sern Tat: If you see this, sorry fo mentioning your name up there. lol Don't mind rite? Hehe. Nice experience mar, share share lar.)

Happy Mooncake Festival!

2009-10-03T18:15:00.003+08:00

Happy mooncake festival, or lantern festival, or whatever you call it... By the way, it should be Mid-Autumn festival. -_-"

Okay... Now I gonna switch to 'emo' mode...

Traditional mooncakes, lanterns, candles... Gone are those days.

Nowadays,

Traditional 'lotus-paste' mooncakes have been slowly replace by fancy variety flavoured mooncakes.

Sitting in the house compound under the full moonlight drinking tea has been replaced by BBQ parties drinking colas.

And the lanterns... and candles... I've seen them... I've played them... When I was young...

From paper lanterns, to plastic lanterns, then battery-operated lanterns, and now...

No lanterns...

From children holding lanterns in their house compound during lantern festival last time, to holding play-station consoles in their room during lantern festival these days, just like any other day.

Where is the traditional value of Lantern/Mooncake/Mid-Autumn festival these days???

Half past 19

2009-10-02T11:45:00.002+08:00

The guy in the above picture is half past 19... He's in his final 6 months before stepping into his twenties... And he's terrified just by the thought of it...

FAQs

2009-09-30T18:09:00.003+08:00

Since I started blogging, I blogged about myself, I blogged about my life, I blogged about sports, about music, about politics...

But today, I'm gonna blog about... MY BLOG!

Below are some 'Frequently Asked Questions' (FAQs) about my blog. Okay okay... not that frequent lar... No one asked me also. I created these questions lar... O_O

Q: Why your blog so boring wan...? No pictures, videos... Mostly words... Boring lar...
A: I express myself better in words. Perhaps some say a picture speaks a thousand words. But if I keep showing pictures only, how am I gonna express my inner feelings and thoughts? This is the 'Diary of Jen', not 'Photo Album of Jen', I write about my feelings and thoughts here.

Q: Okay, got it. But your writing style seems a bit too formal, like writing an essay or something. Full with long descriptions. Why?
A: That's my style. When I wanna tell people something, I wanna tell it clearly. I want readers to fully understand what I wanna express.

Q: But sometimes your descriptions seems to use lots of bombastic words. Or at least, words that are much deeper than typical blogging language. Don't you feel scared that some people might not like your style?
A: If I write according to what people wanna read, that means I'm blogging for others. I blog for myself. So I do it my way. Of course I hope people enjoy reading my blog. But if they don't, too bad. I stick to my style.

Q: So using bombastic words is your style, means you actually write to impress? Not write to express?
A: A bit of both. In order to really express myself, sometimes I just had to write impressively. Take for example, 'big' and 'enormous' actually says the same thing. We all know that. But I bet everyone will still have a sub-concious feeling that 'enormous' is a little bigger than 'big'. Rite?

Q: Why you cut your hair short?
A: That's my style. I like my hair short. Wait a minute... Why am I even answering this? You should be askin questions bout my blog!

Q: Okay okay. You seem to have a lot of free time hor? So often see you got new posts.
A: No. I don't blog during your so-called 'free time'. Perhaps most people will kind of like: 'Hey, ntg 2 do now. So free. Okay lar, let me post something on my blog.' I don't do that. Blogging is part of my routine. Just like going to class, sleep, eat and so on... Minus those time, including my blogging time, only then the extra time will be my 'free time'. I even self-set a limit of minimum 12 posts per month. (You can check last month's and this month's number of posts. Today is last day of this month and you are reading my 12th post this month. Hahax.)

Q: So you like to blog huh?
A: I like to express myself. I don't get to let people know my feelings all the time. So the best way to express myself is blogging. By the way, I like writing too.

Q: Hmm... why don't you wanna try having a longer hairstyle?
A: Once again. I said I have my style, and my style is short hair! Questions about my blog please...

Q: Overall what do you think about your blog? Will people like it?
A: Seriously I think people will have contrasting feelings about my blog. Those who like it, will enjoy very much. They might feel my style is unique, humour, creative (just like this post, who else other than me will blog in a question and answer way? lolx). Those who don't like my blog, might feel its boring, lame, and HATE IT! Ooops.

Q: So its all about your style huh? You don't like listening other's advices?
A: Yes and no. First of all, I am a man of my own. The way I blog, the way I talk, the way I dress... All according to my way. Anyway I do like comments and advices about a change. But it must not drift too far away from my style.

Q: Don't you think a longer hairstyle will look good on you? Like those Taiwan or Hong Kong stars...
A: Alright! I had enough of this! I'll sign off here! There's something wrong with you! What the hell?!

Q: ...............

(The happenings above are completely fictional. The reason of this post is just to answer some possible questions that my blog readers might ask. I just imagined and answered those questions myself. It's just for laughs. ^^ )

Haircut

2009-09-28T18:28:00.003+08:00

I miss my short hair! Yeah u heard it rite... I miss my short hair.

I know most people would say 'I miss my long hair' but I'm just this weird.

Today, I cut my hair. It's my first haircut in almost 3 months. Why so long no cut hair? Coz of 'peer pressure'. Haha. I never tried keeping long hair before. My hair is always short. But I always hear voices. Voices asking me why don't I try keeping longer hair. They are voices from my friends. I've always preferred short hair. Not botak of coz, but short hair, much shorter than 'typical Asian guys' or better example, 'typical Taiwanese or Hong Kong stars'. I always respond to the suggestions of my friends with a smile, and then ignore it.

Somehow one day, I decided to try. I said to myself : Okay, let's not cut hair for 3 months, see how I will look like with longer hair.

Time flew past... (Zzz why am I saying this? Okay, that was random, nvm...)

Back to the topic, 3 months gone past, and I had the longest hair that I've ever had since I got memory. To many, even 'the longest hair I ever had' is still considered short to them. Lolz.

Anyway, I don't really feel comfortable with it as my hair is so thick, and oily. I knew this long time ago. I had oily hair. It ain't feel good.

So today, I decided to have a haircut. Poof!!! Now my hair is short again, and spiky. And most importantly, I felt fresh and cool. The cool I mean here is not that cool with the meaning of looking good (although I know I do... xD), the cool I mean here is like there's no more heat trapped inside my hair, like the wind can blow inside my hair and reach the skin of my head. Lolz. Okay, once again I sound weird. But I really do feel cooler with short hairstyle. When my hair is long, I always look and feel sweaty because it seems like there's a layer of hot air trapped on my head and can't escape. ARGH!!! -_-"

Now, I am gonna stick to my short hair, it's my style. Now who says people can't look good in short hair? Look at Justin Timberlake... (He is almost near-botak all the time)

Nightmare

2009-09-27T14:45:00.002+08:00

I had a nightmare. Simple as that. A bad dream. A scary one. I can't elaborate a lot here coz I tend to forget my dreams when I wake up. I can't recall the full story. But I was in a mansion. A haunted one. With corpse. With ghosts. I nearly died. Haven't had such dremas for a long time. People say dreams are reflections of what you think during the day. What does this means to me?

Damn those 'highlighters'

2009-09-24T14:30:00.004+08:00

The 'highlighter' I mean here is those drivers who shoot highlight at me when I'm driving.

And yeah! I'm damn-ing those people!

Few days back on Monday, when I'm driving my dad's car somewhere at Subang, a jeep highlighted me from behind, asking me to give way or go faster. And no, it's not on a highway, if it's on a highway, I will without a doubt give way because I'm usually slower than most cars on the fast lane, but this happens along a 2-lane town road. I was on the right lane, and there's a car going just a lil bit slower than me on my left. Then appear this jeep, or van, or whatsoever, highlighting me. I was at around 70, on a town road, how fast can I go? Straight away I'm furious. I won't switch my lane, I won't go any faster either. I purposely do that because he 'ignited' me first. If not, according to my 'driving style', I would usually go faster and overtake the car on the left and then cut back in. Not this time... I told my dad: It's impossible that I will give way! (我哪里会要让他？)

This is not the first time such things happened to me. Around last month, some kind of guy highlighted and honk me somewhere in Klang. Once again I wanna say, if it's on highway, nevermind I give you way. But on city roads, if I don't think I'm going too slow, sorry, not in my life I will give way.

To drivers like that, I usually will say: 这些人不是赶着去生孩子，不是赶着去开房，而是赶着去死！It translates 'these people are not rushing to deliver baby, also not rushing to 'open room' (have sex), but they are rushing to die!'. Well... It sounds much more powerful in chinese anyway. xD

And people who know me well will know that when I scold people, I really scold until gao gao punya. How I scold? I don't scold them. I will never scold them. I scold their parents! The reason these people are like that, not their fault mar... It's their parents who are useless, who failed to educate them! That's my style of scolding people. I feel this is the way that would make people really angry. No matter how much you scold them, also can't make them as angry as scolding their parents once. That's my opinion. But of coz... I ain't crazy. I will not scold in front of the person. I will just scold behind the person (like scolding in my car). By doing this, I don't risk anything, at the same time I have my satisfaction too.

Well... my way of scolding sounds controversial. I don't care anyway. But here's a lesson lar, this shows that if people don't want their parents to get cursed by me until like that, don't highlight me. Lolz! But the best is, DON'T LAR HIGHLIGHT ANYONE. DRIVE SAVE LAR. Why the rush? Think of your love ones. Think of your... PARENTS. Muahahahahaha...

(Note: Show me some comments lar... On that chatbox there... ^^)

Backstreet's Back

2009-09-21T12:47:00.003+08:00

Backstreet's back! My favourite boyband is out with a new single 'Straight Through My Heart (Soldier Down)', and their new album will also be out soon. Who says boyband only attract young girls? I'm a fan of theirs since I started listening to music.

'Tell me why... Ain't nothing but a heartache... Tell me why... Ain't nothing but a mistake' (I want it that way)

'All you people can you see can you see...' (Larger than life)

I remember those are the songs I used to mumble in my mouth along my way to school. Primary school that is! Phew... They have come a long way. Formed in 1992, they are now in their 17th year as a group, and still going strong. Now, they are more like Backstreet 'Men' already. xD

They are one of the starters of the 'Boyband Era' in the 90's. And while many other boybands had come and go, they survived (literally) till today as a group without disbanding. Well... perhaps one of the reason I like to sing their songs a lot is because their songs are typical boyband pop style, which requires much lesser vocal skills to sing compared to R n'B, Rap, and Rock. Basically, their songs just require you to get into the rhythm and you can sing along already. Nowadays, everytime I hear their songs on the radio while I'm driving alone, for sure I will sing along. Okay... I really do sing out loud when I'm driving alone. Coz no one's there to critic me if I sing badly or break my voice! (One of my secrets revealed here!) Lolz xD.

Back to the Boys, after being drifting away from their older voices in their previous 2 albums, this latest song actually brings back the feeling of their older songs. Aiks! It's hard to describe what I mean by their 'older voices'. But if you have been following their songs, I'm sure you can feel a difference in their songs in their past 2 albums compared to their previous ones before that. It's not like the Backstreet Boys of old.

However, 'Straight Through My Heart' is close to their voices in the 90's, with a lil' bit of a techno or dance element in the music, probably because RedOne produced the song. Hehe. Somehow I felt the music of this song and Enrique Iglesias's 'Taking Back My Love'(also produced by RedOne) sounds similar.

Anyway, 5 of my all-time favourite Backstreet Boys' songs remain:
I Want It That Way (1999)
Shape Of My Heart (2000)
I'll Never Break Your Heart (1996)
Drowning (2001)
Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely (1999)

Looking forward to their new album as well as their new songs... :)

'Straight Through My Heart' music video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5Dc14h_3W0

916 Malaysia Day

2009-09-16T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today, 16th September 2009, is Malaysia Day! If National Day is the day we gained indepence, then Malaysia Day is the day when Malaysia is truly formed! Where Sabah and Sarawak joined the Penninsular to form Malaysia.

Here's a bit of history:
Last year's today, Anwar Ibrahim said Pakatan will take over the country to become the government. One year on.............................................................................................................. All that talk seems nowhere to be seen. xD

Healthy Paranoia

2009-09-14T18:55:00.003+08:00

1st of all, WOOHOO! 'Diary of Jen' is 2 months old! Yea... I started blogging exactly 2 months ago. And what a way to celebrate this by the releasing of 15Malaysia's latest video 'Healthy Paranoia'. Hehe...

This time, it features Baki Zainal (who also appeared in 'Meter') and Health Minister Dato Sri Liow Tiong Lai. In this video, Dato Sri plays himself. So not much acting was needed. But still, he seemed so natural, doesn't look like he's acting. Then we have the ever-so-funny Baki Zainal, acting as a PR officer presenting a campaign proposal, which seemed a good one at first, and then slowly turned to a hilarious one.

Warning: Mamak food may cause diarrhoea!
Warning: Vegetables may contain larvae!
Warning: Too much nasi lemak will cause you to be fat!

Imagine that!!! When I see this, I was like 'WTH???" xD
If like that ah... All the food in the country also must have warning sign lo... Who still dare to eat? lol
Then, N1H1... Speechless. A PR officer who can't even get the name right, still dare to go and present to the Health Minister. Baki is still Baki, in the end, he still can't hide his Chinese ability. Cakap Cina lagi. Haha.

Last but not least, 15Malaysia showed us that politicians can actually make good actors!
But...
There are two perceptions to this...
Those who are impressed will say: Wow! This politician can really act! Never knew that.
Those who are unimpressed will say: Cheh! Politician mar, sure know how to act lar... (You get my meaning don't cha?)
So which category are you in? >.<

Further reference:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYr9lj1RvFI&feature=channel_page

Where got ghost?

2009-09-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

Went to watch this movie at BBK Jusco yesterday with my old classmate Yeat Yee. Kinda interested because this is a Hor-medy (Horror+Comedy). I have always been a fan of horror and comedies, but this 2 genres just doesn't seem possible to be able to be combined right? Then again, Jack Neo once again showed us that nothing is impossible.

We were late for the movie. It should have started at around 2pm after those ads, but we only entered the cinema at around 2:15pm, so I missed a little of the front part.

Anyway, not gonna be a spoiler here as I know there are people who haven't watched it yet. But basically, it's made up of 3 short stories lar, as you can see from the above movie poster. Since it's rated 'U', means I don't expect it to be much scarier than previous horror movies that I've watched. Instead I'm more interested in the way the 2 genres were combined, and of course, the usual funny Hokkien dialogues in typical Jack Neo films.

1st part is called 'Roadside got ghost'. I missed the first few minutes of this part, but still managed to catch up with the story lar. Hehe. Well... I think the moral of this story is that we should not gamble (Singapore's casino will be opened by the end of the year). Hmm... Feel a bit -_-" right? The funny part about this story is basically the dialogues from that 'limpeh limpeh' (also seen in 'I Not Stupid') guy, but he's dead in the end. xD

2nd part is called 'Jungle got ghost'. And this is for me the funniest story among the three. Don't play play in jungles tau? Hati-hati nampak hantu... In certain parts its kinda scary, the way ghosts pops out and whatsoever. But despite being scary, still the dialogues and interactions between the actors are presented in a comical way.

3rd part, and for me the best story, is called 'House got ghost'. Maybe because it has a sense of familiarity. It's like a continuation of 'Money No Enough 2', with the same actors. The mother's trademark 'jia pa be?' is back to haunt them. The end is quite touching actually. It shows that a mother's love is the greatest love of all. Maybe Jack leave the best for last? Lolz.

Nice film overall. But like all horror films, and like what I say from time to time, it's the sound effect that creates the 'scaryness'. For instance, there is a scene where Mother appears at the side of Ah Ong's bed asking him where's her mickey mouse bra (LOL), thanks to the sound effect, it's scary here. But let's not forget, the exact same scene appeared in Money No Enough 2, and it isn't scary at all at that time. xD (Note: In fact, throughout the movie, more often I was frightened by the screams from the group of people sitting few rows behind me, and not the movie scene itself -.-")

Okay lar... It's a film worth watching. So go watch!!!

Hey... Isn't that Ah Keong (Jack Neo) should pay me for promoting his movie? O_o

Lame chop... I mean Lame Joke.

2009-09-10T23:25:00.003+08:00

Saw this lame joke somewhere today. Its so lame that I failed to laugh after I see it, I shiver instead, due to the 'coldness' of this joke. Anyway, just wanna share it here and hope to freeze you guys, but the candle above would give you some warmth... (okay, I have been a bit cold already for this xD)

Here's it:

What do you call a cow who is always sleepy?
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FUN COW!!! Why??? Because in cantonese, 'sleep' happens to be... 'FUN COW'!!! now FREEZE!!!

Meter

2009-09-09T01:07:00.004+08:00

First of all, WOW! This is my 2nd blog post in as many hours!

Like what I said in my previous post, today is a meaningful day. 09-09-09

And what a way to start this meaningful day! At 12am sharp, 'Meter' was released. Err... In case you don't know what this is about, well... It's one of the 15Malaysia short clips.

15Malaysia is one awesome project ler... Total 15 short clips, showcasing the current issues and daily lifes of typical Malaysians, acted by famous people including actors, models, and even politicians!

'Meter' is one of the clips. And so far, I say, it's the best! Firstly, the casts itself is great! Including famous and controversial politician Khairy Jamaluddin, model Amber Chia, Radio/TV host and singer Jason Lo, controversial artist Namewee, and comedian Baki Zainal.

Secondly, it was just pure funny! Khairy can actually make a very good actor! Lolz. The scene where he fights with Jason Lo, who is a Chelsea fan like me, just make me wonder: Is this really Khairy? And the way Baki suddenly pops up a Chinese sentence just make me speechless... Then the gorgeous Amber Chia? I think this no need elaboration already lar xD. And then finally, controversial Namewee meets Khairy's controversial Keris. Hmm... for this part I feel Namewee was a bit conservative. I was expecting more sparks between the two of them.

Lastly, the good ol' moral values behind this story are...

Think yourself lar!

Further reference:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fHa-W1QNU2Q

09-09-09

2009-09-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

My title says it all.

09-09-09

A meaningful date which will only occur once every century.

Cool right?

So do something cool everyone!

Extra bonus for that, if you wake up early, you get 09:09:09 09-09-09!

-_-"

Have a nice day ^^

Note: Seriously I dont know I 'high' for what? Its just another day...

Run for fun

2009-09-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

Phew... just came back from a 6km run this morning. Organized by Klang Centro and New Balance, this is my first run (well, don't consider this as marathon, lol) this year.

No registration, no categories, and don't even have a running number, this run is open to all and just for fun. Haha. Oh! And of course, no prize money whatsoever. Already say no registration lor... where will have prize ler? xD

The run starts from Klang Centro, along the way going past Hokkien Association, Kong Hoe School, Bukit Kuda, a glimpse of the dirty Klang River, Connaught Bridge road, Batu Tiga road and back to where it all started.

I kept pace with my dad all the way until Bukit Kuda, which is almost half the race distance, then I started to drop off... One year plus never run any marathon ler... Stamina sure 'cha' a bit lar... Hehe.

Anyhow, I managed to run the distance with the time of 40 minutes sharp. Dad finished 2 minutes earlier. OMG! I can't believe I was exhausted after the run!!! Zzz...

But the good thing is, after the run, breakfast was provided. At 'Teh Tarik Place' inside the complex. And yeah! Typical Malaysian breakfast with Nasi Lemak and Teh Tarik. Never been there before, kinda nice place to sit down chit-chat and 'yumcha' actually. Franchised-style mamak, place nice, environment nice, food nice, price also 'nice' (compared to outside mamak lar). xD

As this run is just for fun, seems like only around 100-150 people turned up. Can be said as marathon of its smallest kind. I took part today to have an idea of what the 'real deal' would be. The 'real deal' I mean here is on 11th October, there's a run also organized by Centro. The same route, the same distance, but this time with proper registration, a racer number, and prize money (haiyo, of course I not going for it lar).

So today, I've set the bar (err... not really high). Hopefully, and quite surely, on that day, I can beat my time today!

Time to beat: 40 minutes.

Fallen out of love with the beautiful game...

2009-08-31T21:50:00.009+08:00

Football, dubbed 'The Beautiful Game' not by me, but by everyone in this world who knows football.

It seems a long time ago that I am one of a few kids who played football in the middle of the afternoon no matter how bright and hot the sunlight is. To others (including me now), we looked like 'sohai' at that time. But looking back, that is the time when I enjoyed playing football most. I enjoyed so much that at that time, eventhough playing under such hot conditions, yet I still doesn't feel stupid. xD

Gone are those days...

Days of fully enjoying football and playing without pressure is replaced by intense and pressured matches. I don't know why. Recently, every match is like a very intense competition, that sometimes even looked like a fight to me. I saw 'monsters' on the pitch. That whenever the ball is with you, you had them tackling you without a second thought. Monsters... Some of them are really monsters!!! Seriously, I already treat some of them as monsters. The only thing they lacked is the ability to shoot fire out of their mouth. Other than that, the way they hunt you down, trying to injure you, is like nothing else but a monster. Look here, I'm not saying that you can't have sliding tackles while playing football, but what are we playing now? World Cup? Olympics? English Premier League? Spanish Premera Liga? Or Serie A Italia? NO! We are not even playing in a amateur school competition in Malaysia! So why must you play that rough? Or is it whether you don't have the brains to think that such rough tackles might injure people? Or are you just like what I said: Monsters? My health is more important, I don't wanna play with monsters and risk myself getting injured.

And because of such intense matches, as Chinese say 火药味, the pressure rises. There will be zero margin and tolerance for mistakes. Whenever you did a mistake, in your ears, words of blame from your teammates are the only words you heard. Just like today, I shot three times, none went in. But that's not what I'm frustrated with, what I'm frustrated with is after each of the three shots I took, I heard complains, I heard blames. 'Walao, you should have passed the ball!', 'Damn, you think you can score from there?', 'WTF are you doing? How can you shoot from there?', 'Can't you cross a better ball?'... And the faces I see, all are blaming expressions.

I wasn't angry, I was just frustrated...

I had enough, when football has become such a rough game, and the pressure to play well is such high, I think it's time to take a break. I don't wanna have any conflicts with my teammates and my opponents as well. I know that if I continue playing under such conditions and pressure, it's not gonna be a matter of whether I will run riot, but when I'm gonna run riot.

It shouldn't be this way, it just shouldn't be this way.

When I missed a shot, what I wanna hear is 'Good try!', not 'Walao... what are you doing?'

When I did not pass the ball well, what I wanna hear is 'Try to pass this way...', not 'Can't you see that I'm here, why did you pass there?'

When I scored a goal, what I wanna see is clapping hands, not faces with expressions that read 'Oh! That is what you should have managed! (理所当然) Nothing to celebrate then...'

But I blame nobody, there's nobody to blame. Its just that the nature of this game has changed. Playing under such intense pressure just make people crack out those demoralising words. I admit that even I myself might say those things to my teammates (even teammates who are my good friends) when they do not play well. But what I wanna say is, it just shouldn't be this way...

I think its fair to say because of these, I've fallen out of love with football. I'm sick of playing with pressure. The football that I wanna play is zero pressure, 100% recreational football. I wanna play football that is win or lose, life goes on... I don't want to play football where you lose and there's like no tomorrow.

Today, I tried to show what I feel. When I had a mistake, I was blamed, but I said loudly 'Nevermind lar! (又不用紧啦)'. I know at that moment nobody is gonna catch what I actually mean. But what I really wanna say is: Why scold me? It's just another mistake. Life goes on right? It's not the end of the world! Why so pressure?

I've said that I wanna take a break from playing football. And hell yeah I seriously mean it! I don't know for how long. A week? A fortnight? A month? A year? I don't have a single clue now. But football is in my blood. I love sports, and football IS my favourite sport. 1 thing is for sure: I will be back!

Selamat Hari Merdeka!

2009-08-31T02:23:00.002+08:00

Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!

52 years ago, the 'Union Jack' came down, and the flag that would now be known as 'Jalur Gemilang' went up.

Yes! Malaysia is 52 years old! Err... still very young lar... Where got old?! xD

But hor... although still young but got some 'health' problems already ler. Like Teoh Beng Hock case, Port Klang Free Zone case, Istana Toyo, MCA conflicts, plus never-ending haze and H1N1...

Must start to take care a bit ler... When 'sick', must eat 'medicine'. When not 'sick', also must eat some 'vitamins' wan ler...

52 years... Malaysia has gone through high and low, but who doesn't? The only best thing to do is to learn from mistakes, then grow and mature! ^^

Malaysia Boleh! 1Malaysia boleh!

Once again, Selamat Hari Merdeka!

My favourite player leaves my favourite club

2009-08-29T00:23:00.003+08:00

When I started this blog, I told myself not to make this blog look like a football blog. So, I've not posted anything about my favourite game so far. But today, that 'record' will be broken. All but because my favourite player will leave my favourite club. That's right, while I'm surfing the net just now, I saw the news that Andrei Shevchenko (my favourite player) will leave Chelsea (my favourite club) within the next few days. Although expected, but still I'm devastated.

Sheva (short form for Shevchenko) wanted first team football regularly, however Chelsea manager Carlo Ancelotti cannot guarantee that, so Sheva was told that he can now leave the club and seek for another new club.

Okay... A bit of a history here. Sheva is one of my favourite players ever since the day I started watching football. During his time at AC Milan, he was famous for his speed and dribbling skills. He proved that he is one of the most leathal strikers in Europe, let alone Italy, during that period. Sheva truly became a Milan legend for the number of goals he scored for them. In 2003, Roman Abramovich bought Chelsea Football Club and began his persuit of Sheva. AC Milan hung on the Sheva for 3 years by keep refusing Chelsea's offers to buy the player. Reason? Because Sheva is just too important for AC Milan. From here, it can clearly be seen how good Sheva is. Somehow in 2006, Roman got his dream come true, or more importantly, I got my dream come true too! Sheva became a Chelsea player, during which he also became the most expensive player in the English Premiership at that time. I was so excited at the prospect of seeing Sheva play for my favourite club. Expectations were high, especially due to his expensive transfer fee and high wages. He made his debut against Liverpool and scored! But Chelsea will then go on to lose the game 1-2. After that, Sheva began to fade away. The then Chelsea manager Jose Mourinho even altered his formations to accommodate Sheva better in the team. However, Sheva failed to settle in the team and his performances were nowhere near his peak. A dull second season then followed. And after scoring Chelsea's final goal of the 2007/08 season, he was loaned back to his old club, AC MIlan. There, he again failed to recapture his form. Eventually this season he returned to Chelsea, but not for long. Although Ancelotti followed him from AC Milan to Chelsea, but even he cannot guarantee that he would use Sheva regularly. Sadly, Sheva opted to leave.

Sheva's leaving actually follows a list of patterns. Firstly, Ukraine (Sheva's country) strikers always seem to be unable to succeed in the Premiership. Sergei Rebrov formed a leathal partnership with Sheva when both of them are at Dynamo Kiev, but failed dismally during his Premiership stint. Then we got Andriy Voronin (although still a Premierhsip player now), who is Sheva's striker partner in Ukraine national team, deemed surplus to requirements in Liverpool.

Secondly, Sheva also follows a long list of failed Chelsea strikers over the past few years (damn I hate to say this, it just shows that many have failed at Chelsea). From Adrian Mutu, to Hernan Crespo. From Mateja Kezman, to Claudio Pizarro. Hmm... maybe Chelsea just have tendency to fail previously successful strikers? xD

Anyway, based on the strikers that Chelsea have right now, including 2 golden boot winners Didier Drogba and Nicolas Anelka, it might really be best for Sheva personally to leave the club.

Overall in 2 full seasons at Chelsea, Sheva scored 22 goals. But perhaps his best contribution to the club would be the unleashing of his strike partner Drogba. Remarkably, Drogba's best 2 seasons for Chelsea so far are actually during the 2 seasons Sheva is in the club!

All the best in whichever club you join! Sheva ^^

Andrei Shevchenko celebrates goal.

Sheva in one of his final few games for Chelsea.

Didier Drogba and Andrei Shevchenko

Malaysia 'Chaos' Association?

2009-08-27T19:58:00.003+08:00

The news headline today reads 'MCA deputy president Chua Soi Lek sacked'. Reason? The infamous sex scandal happened nearly 2 years ago.

What can I say about this? When I heard Chua was sacked by the MCA party president Ong Tee Keat because of this reason, I was like 'Are you kidding?'

I personally felt it was super harsh. Why suddenly sack someone because of something that happened so long ago? Furthermore, Chua definately has took his responsibilty. After the scandal, he resigned from all posts, and faded away from the political scene. Then, Chua decided to take part in the party elections at the end of last year, competing for the deputy president post. Ong, who was going for the party president post at the time, publicly said that there are no 'menu' or specific preferences as to who he wants his deputy to be. Ong claimed that he will work with whichever candidate who was voted as his deputy.

It turned out that Ong and Chua both won the posts they competed for. Ever since then, reports saying that they do not work well with each other never failed to surface. When choosing the party members for the Cabinet, Chua, who was the deputy president, wasn't given any posts.

Until today, the bombshell was dropped, Chua was sacked. This is a very controversial decision as Chua had took his resposibility, and was then VOTED in as deputy president. It's pretty clear that he had paid for his sins. But then, why was he sacked for the reason again? Is it really because of sex scandal? Or is it as certain reports said that Ong did not work well with Chua? Then again, Ong said he will work well with whoever voted his deputy? Oh... the questions could go on and on...

But one thing is for sure, this decision will cause unrest among some party members of MCA. However, to how much an extent still remains to be seen. Hopefully all the problems can be sought out as soon as possible to avoid splitting the party, which is the ultimate chaos. Furthermore, such a problem might also be emphasized by the Oppositions in order to challenge the position of BN...

Note: Above are all just the writer's opinion. Don't mean to offend anybody. xD

Iguana Invasion

2009-08-22T15:20:00.002+08:00

It's a rainy day today. I was sitting on the sofa in my living room playing my handphone games (yes, I'm that lame). Suddenly heard my dad called me to look at something. Wow! I was shocked to see a small iguana on the floor! At first I was a bit scared (I admit), but then I felt that it's not everyday that an iguana happens to turn up in your house right? Lolz. So I decided to have a close up look at it. I don't have the habit of taking pictures of memorable things. xD. I have missed so many pictures worth taking in the past. Haha. As this time I had my phone in my palms, so I managed to take a picture of that iguana, before my dad chased it out of the house. And yeah! We didn't kill it! :)

Well... while it run, it looks kinda cute after all. It's not that kind of scary animal that I first thought. But then... I repeat, this is a small one... Don't play with the big ones... >.<

Losing streak (me in minesweepers) vs. Winning streak (Usain Bolt in 100m)

2009-08-18T12:45:00.007+08:00

First of all, this post is a response to my cousin's post on his blog. Yeah! YOU!!!

Lolz! I've always considered myself a pro in Minesweeper @ MSN Games. Winning 3 rounds out of 3 against anyone is just kinda normal to me, just like Usain Bolt winning the 100meters athletics event.

Until recently... I've started to lose my advantage. I don't know why. Hehe. Maybe is bad luck? Or I used to have good luck? No no no... I've won so many times before, it couldn't be luck.

So conclusion is: I had bad luck in the game recently. xD

On the other hand, I talked about Usain Bolt just now. And yeah! He has won the 100meters again yesterday! Also, he broke his own world record set exactly a year ago in the Olympics! He slashed his old record by 0.11s to bring it to 9.58s. How fast exactly is 9.58seconds?

Well, in the time it took me to finish typing this sentence, he would have launched from his block, accelerated, and are now 100meters away from his starting point.

Usain Bolt has became one of my favourite sporting idols. Why? Not just because he is the fastest sprinter around, but also because he has a built which doesn't look like a sprinter! He is lanky (195cm), and not as athletic and muscular as fellow sprinters like Tyson Gay and Asafa Powell. Traditionally, 100meters world champions are not taller than 6 feet/183cm, and are usually very muscular. Such a built ensures top acceleration. When you have long legs, common sense tells you that it takes longer for you to move it doesn't it? Just think of 2 simple pendulums, one with a shorter string and one with a longer string, which 1 will swing faster when you release it from a same point? It might be a disadvantage to Bolt for having long legs, but it could also turn out to be an advantage because if he could take his strides at the same speed as his competitors, then his larger steps with his long legs would meant an advantage to him. And that's exactly what he did!

Sportsmen like Usain Bolt inspires me that lanky people could still use their long legs to their advantage! ^^

The lesson of the day is: When you don't have something which others have, you can work and exploit what you have and use it to the max! If you are not gifted with something others have, then surely you are gifted with something which others don't have! :)

OMG!!! Do I sound like a motivational speaker or what??? Oh well...

Clear-cut winner.

Asafa Powell, Tyson Gay, Usain Bolt.

Bolt Trademark.

R.I.P. Sly

2009-08-15T12:14:00.002+08:00

Woke up today to a sad and shocking news that a mass comm diploma coursemate of mine has passed away.

R.I.P. Sylvester

Deja Vu

2009-08-11T15:18:00.002+08:00

I know this is kinda random but when I came across this word today, I was like 'OMG!!! So long never experience it already. Almost forgotten about this thingy!'

First of all, I would like to say I experience Deja Vu quite often last time. Okay... For those who don't know what it is, it's really something you need to experience in order for you to understand it. Have you ever experienced something that is happening now seem to have happened to you before? It's like you have been in an exact same situation before when actually it is happening for the first time.

If you never experienced it before, then I'm sure you will feel unbelievable that such things would happen. But it exists!

I used to have Deja Vu few years back. Sometimes when a friend talk to me, I was like 'Hey, looks like you have said this exact same thing, in this exact same place, with the exact same surroundings before!' Of course this is impossible, how could the exact same thing happen twice? xD

Well... So far there is no conclusion as to why and how Deja Vu happens. Only some predictions said that maybe it has something to do with dreams. But how on earth could I dream of something that will happen in the future?

And the weird thing is, although it means you feel like something has happened before, Deja Vu doesn't go the way in which you can predict what happens next. In fact, it goes the way in which you have a memory of something that is currently happening, however you don't know what's next, but when it comes, you will go like: Oh yeah! This is it, this is what happened! Lol... weird weird weird.

Haha! It didn't happen to me for a long time already. Does it mean anything? Anyway I don't mind experiencing it again as it is not freaking at all. ^^

This post so random lar... Nevermind... To make it more random, I will just say there is a movie called 'Deja Vu', and there's also a song by Beyonce called 'Deja Vu' as well... zzz -_-"

Peace

A week that was...

2009-08-09T13:38:00.002+08:00

6 days has passed since my last blog post, and it's the longest period of emptiness (no posts) since I started my blog. But it doesn't mean that nothing happenned to me. Lolz! So here are some of the happennings of the past week, a week that was:

~ Boring
It's the second week of my semester break and, basically, I did nothing. Zzz. Oh ya! I slept... zzz

~ Happy and Suprised
Found out my results for my past semester and it kinda shocked me because I, personally, think I did quite well, at least it's unexpectedly better than what I thought I will achieve. I managed to hold on to my 'clean record' of never being failed for any of my course subjects until now. My results for my 5 subjects this past semester are (Just for your info ya! Not bragging):
Public Relations: A (It's everyone's good work for making the PR event a success! ^^)
Media Planning: B+ (Miss Maha was quite strict in marking this paper, a number of classmates failed, honestly I don't know how I passed -_-")
Creative Strategy: B (Phew...)
Consumer Behaviour: C+ (Was worried about this subject.)
Principles of Advertising: C+ (Doesn't feel good about this subject too.)
Once again I made it, and I guess I've managed to raise my CPGA to above 3.00 (my target) after these results. Perhaps now I should go for 3.50???

~ Thrilling
My friend Yung Loo was robbed while walking near his home on Wednesday. The robber came with a motorcycle, pointed a knife to his neck, and took his belongings away. He lost his wallet with RM40+ inside, IC, driver's license, handphone, and some books in his bag. This happenned at a 'lorong' or alley between two middle units of a row of terrace house. And I only got to know about this incident the next day.

~ Special
On Friday, 7th August, at 12:34:56pm, it's the '123456789' moment which lasts for merely a second. But it wouldn't happen again ever in my life. And I missed it, by a minute. I was sitting in front of my PC chatting and when I realized it, it was already 12:35pm... T.T

~ Nostalgic
Invaded my (beloved) secondary school's football field to have a match between 'old boys' and 'current students'. Had to wait till 10am before we could start our match, and gosh, it was hot! After playing a while I cannot 'tahan' the heat already. The match ended 1-1. Keen for a rematch! And I want it early before the sun rises!

~ Exciting
The football season is back this weekend! With Chelsea vs Manchester United in the Community Shield. Can't wait for Chelsea to grab their first of many trophies this season! Wahaha~~

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2009-08-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

On August 7th, 2009, at 12hr 34minutes 56seconds, the time and date will be:

12:34:56 07-08-09

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And why there's a 10 on my title?

Because this is my 10th blog post!!! xD

For the first time ever...

2009-08-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

For the first time ever...

~I read a Chinese ghost story book.
I love ghost and horror stories, read several of them. One of the horror series that I read most is "True Singapore Ghost Stories". But today, when I went to Popular at Bukit Tinggi Jusco, I randomly select a Chinese Ghost storybook and tell myself: Hey! Let's give it a try. I sat down on the floor, and opened the book. Gosh the words go from up to down (vertically), and the lines go from right to left... This brings me to my second 'first'...

~I read a Chinese book with such word arrangements.
Those familiar with me would probably know that I hate, or should I say, simply don't know how to read a book printed that way. English books for sure wouldn't have this word arrangements, but even those Chinese books that I've read in my life are printed in my so called 'normal' way. It just feels weird for me to have my eyes read in a different way.

~I read a Chinese storybook this year!
Yup... Ever since I went into college, I kinda break my ties with Chinese books. I did read a few Chinese books this year, like those "How to chase a girl", "Laws of attraction", "How to make myself look good", "Mars vs Venus" kind of Chinese books (Okay I admit that... but I just read it in the stores, I won't buy it!). But this is the first time this year that I read a Chinese storybook/novel. Luckily I still don't have any difficulties reading Chinese! Lolz.

Hmm... Despite all these 'firsts', I still yet to buy my first book this year. I spend a lot of time reading books in bookstores, but I haven't spend a single cent on any books this year. Bookstores are my library. Ooops... Well, perhaps that's my way of reading, and that is without paying. By the way, it's a nice book. I read one of the short stories in it, quite scary and suspenceful, suit my taste ^^. But then... I have no idea about the title of this book! O_O

When will I buy a book and bring home and really read it? Erm... I'm thinking about it...

Speechless...

2009-08-01T00:19:00.004+08:00

Today I went to BBK Jusco.
While I was walking, a Malay promoter gave me a brochure, I took it.
I can see that he's promoting some kind of cream.
Seeing that the group of people in front of me just ignored him, I stop and decided to give a bit of a reaction.
What I'm unhappy is that, before saying anything, he took my hand and applied that cream on it.
I was like, WTF???
'I just give you a reaction and took your brochure, did I ask you to give me anything?'
Nevermind...
I give him face.
I did not just walk away although my mind told me to when he gave me that cream without saying anything.
Then he took me to his booth and continue saying bla bla bla...
Okay... Bla bla bla...
Again... Bla bla bla...
Then... Bla bla bla...
After that... Bla bla bla...
Guess he did not know that when he took me to his booth, I am already so determined that he ain't gonna get any business from me.
I just wanna hear what he has to say.
Kekeke...
He said: This cream is good for you. Look at your oily nose, and those red rashes beside your nose...
Okay... I admit that. (Not gonna elaborate here coz this post just isn't about my oily nose!)
But I promised myself not to give him any business.
So... Bla bla bla... He bla-ed all he want.
Right or wrong for not giving him and his cream a chance?
At this point I dont know yet, but I do know that I'm a tough nut to crack.
After saying how good it is, he told me to buy that cream, RM15...
Very small bottle...
RM15...
I have lots of RM15 in my wallet!
Ooops!
'But you ain't getting even 1.5 cents from me.'
So I said thanks but no thanks to him.
Then he pretend to whisper to me that he personally would sell that cream at RM10 for me.
He said don't tell his boss...
Oh well...
If someone could so easily lower the price of the cream for any customer, then I think it can't be good no matter what.
Gotcha!!!
Haha... dude... you took the wrong step.
At first I ain't buying from you coz you weren't impressing me with your actions at the first place. (I'm being 'degil' here for not giving you chance >.<)
Now I ain't buying from you coz I felt your cream just doesn't worth my money. (Hey! Now I think I'm actually right for being 'degil'! ^^)
In the end, someone whom I think is his boss said to me: 'OK lar... sell you RM10 lar...'
I said NO.
NO NO NO NO NO...
Guess what? In the end, the promoter again asks his 'boss' want to sell how much, I guess the boss also know that I won't buy it anyhow, so he actually smiled and somewhat joked to the promoter: Sell him RM1 lah...
Ha Ha Ha... Very funny...
Did he know that he just made his cream looked even more worthless?
Before I go, I gave the promoter a pat on his back, and said thanks for the final time.
Phew... 'Thanks', as in 'Thanks for not troubling me anymore...'
Kekeke...
I walked away, with my usual 'cool' (self-proclaimed) walking style, like nothing happened.
Just thinking that: Hey, I got another story to write on my blog today! Woohoo... -_-"

Final note: I don't know whether the cream is really good or not.
I don't wanna know.
And I will never know.
But what I do know is,
I'm 'degil'.
And the way these guys do business ain't the right way.
And now my 'wise man advice': Perhaps you guys wont get any good business even if your cream is really good and effective, unless you change your way, and mind your words (to be more exact, your 'price').

Holidays...

2009-07-29T15:19:00.002+08:00

It's my holidays!!! ^^
It's my holidays... O_O

Everytime my holidays arrive, I have mixed feelings, as seen in above two similar sentence. The difference is the first sentence is a 'yeah' kind of feeling, while the second sentence is a 'ooops' kind of feeling. After a long semester that started in March, thinking that I'm gonna have a 3-week break, instinctively I will feel very happy coz I finally can relax. But am I really happy about it? After having second thoughts, I'm quite sure I'm not fully happy about it. 3 weeks... What to do? To make things worse is that none of my gang are on holiday now, means I can't plan too many activities or outings. Part-time jobs for 2 weeks perhaps? Intro me anyone?

Anyway, there's a proposed gathering for my primary classmates this Saturday. Although most of us still went into the same secondary school, but we are not as close as majority of us went into different classes since then. Now that we are spread even further by going to different colleges and universities, it's a good chance for us to keep up with one another. But hmm... this seems kinda last minute, I was only told about this meeting on Monday. I wonder how many will turn up...

Rave 2 Save

2009-07-26T15:50:00.015+08:00

Phew... Last 2 days were ridiculously busy for me... All for my PR event Rave 2 Save. On Friday right after we finish our semester final exams, we PR class students started our preparations for the event. Goodie bags preparations, stage set up preparations, performance rehearsals... From 12pm all the way until 12am. Gosh I've never been in college for more than 12 hours! This is the first time.

Then the next day, its event day. I reached college at 8am, and continued working for the backdrop on the stage. Throughout the day, I helped carried mineral waters, bazaar goods, helped selling tickets and even did some knocking in front of the auditorium (to hang up the words 'KDU Auditorium', but failed to do so in the end because of 'various reasons'). Even after the event was done and dusted, our work is still not done yet. The expensive backdrop that took us so long to assemble it was destroyed in just a few minutes. Lolz! And also I helped clean up the final bits like throwing garbage bags... Ooops I sound like a cleaner. xD. But seriously I'm exhausted after the busy day.

But overall, the event was a successful one. Everyone did their parts brilliantly. The band performances were great. The car show was also great. What's best is that this whole event is for charity!

No doubts about it since the first day the event was planned, there were conflicts and a bit of arguments, at times even seem chaotic, nevertheless it is still a good experience. This is my first time being involved in organizing such a big event. I've learned that organizing an event is not easy job, and it's super TIRING. This event has also given me the chance to talk to and work with classmates whom I previously never even spoken to before.

At the end of the day, we were told that 75% of us got an A for this PR subject. Hopefully I'm one of the 75%. Haha. But still it's everybody's effort to make this event a good one, and so I have to thank everyone. I'm relieved that after this event, I have a 3-week semester break! Woohoo..

Before I go, just some pictures from Rave 2 Save event day. Unfortunately I didn't take photos for the performances, the below pictures are all from the car show. Those cars on show were cool. And there's even a car with NOS! Yes... you got it right! Nitrous Oxide System! OMG.

(A Kenari with Benz sign... xD)

(Checkout the center panel... Wait... There's no center panel! Just a gear sticking out between the two seats! Handbrakes? What handbrakes? lol)

(The car of the day with NOS.)

Eclipse

2009-07-21T17:51:00.003+08:00

There will be a total sun eclipse tomorrow 22nd July 2009, from 8:29am to 9:48am Malaysian time. During the period of time, the moon passes between the sun and the earth, casting a shadow on the earth. This solar eclipse will be the longest total solar eclipse of the 21st century, so don't miss it.

The Dead Crow

2009-07-20T11:47:00.002+08:00

Okay... First of all this title reminds me of a poem I studied way back when I was in Form 1 as part of the English Literature, but of course this post isn't about that 'old-man-gasping-for-air' poem by A. Samad Said.

Yesterday afternoon, while I was on the way driving to BBK Jusco, along the main road somewhere in front of the abandoned shopping complex project, I see two crows... Okay whats so special about seeing two crows in a town which is so 'saturated' with it? Well, of course there's something that caught my eye. The two crows are standing in the middle of the road, in front of a pile of 'something', which at first I thought would be rubbish or dead animals that mean food to crows.

When I drove past them, I found out that the pile of 'something' is actually a dead crow. Surely a victim of a roadkill. Why would a crow, who could actually fly, chooses to walk across the road and fell victim to a car? I don't know.

The main point is, the two crows seem to be mourning the death of the dead crow. When my car is apporaching them, the two crows flew to the side of the road momentarily, after I drove past them, I looked into my rear-view mirror and see them coming to the side of the dead crow again. It might be their friend, their sibling, their partner... Now who says animals whom we hate so much like crows doesn't have feelings?

Note: In an unrelated story to my post above, I don't know whether is it because I drive here and there a lot, but I noticed that recently there are too many roadkills. Almost everyday, somewhere along my journey to whatever places that I'm going, I see corpses of animals like cats, dogs, even birds on the roads. And my gosh most of them looked scary, you can see their....... okay I don't wanna describe. Maybe its because I used to be the passenger in my dad's car before I took my driving license last year, and as a passenger we seldom pay attention to what's on the road, we tend to be more interested in the 'sceneries' along our trip instead, hence I never notice that many roadkills. So it's just my opinion that there are more roadkills nowadays compared to few years back. Or is it really on the up? If yes, is it because animals nowadays are more stupid that they don't know when to cross the road? Or because humans nowadays are more stupid they always drive so fast that they can't avoid killing animals crossing the roads? Don't mean to offend anyone here, but please lar... Don't drive so fast lah... Avoid killing animals mar... Most important avoid killing own life lor...