Holidays...

It's my holidays!!! ^^
It's my holidays... O_O

Everytime my holidays arrive, I have mixed feelings, as seen in above two similar sentence. The difference is the first sentence is a 'yeah' kind of feeling, while the second sentence is a 'ooops' kind of feeling. After a long semester that started in March, thinking that I'm gonna have a 3-week break, instinctively I will feel very happy coz I finally can relax. But am I really happy about it? After having second thoughts, I'm quite sure I'm not fully happy about it. 3 weeks... What to do? To make things worse is that none of my gang are on holiday now, means I can't plan too many activities or outings. Part-time jobs for 2 weeks perhaps? Intro me anyone?

Anyway, there's a proposed gathering for my primary classmates this Saturday. Although most of us still went into the same secondary school, but we are not as close as majority of us went into different classes since then. Now that we are spread even further by going to different colleges and universities, it's a good chance for us to keep up with one another. But hmm... this seems kinda last minute, I was only told about this meeting on Monday. I wonder how many will turn up...

Rave 2 Save

Phew... Last 2 days were ridiculously busy for me... All for my PR event Rave 2 Save. On Friday right after we finish our semester final exams, we PR class students started our preparations for the event. Goodie bags preparations, stage set up preparations, performance rehearsals... From 12pm all the way until 12am. Gosh I've never been in college for more than 12 hours! This is the first time.

Then the next day, its event day. I reached college at 8am, and continued working for the backdrop on the stage. Throughout the day, I helped carried mineral waters, bazaar goods, helped selling tickets and even did some knocking in front of the auditorium (to hang up the words 'KDU Auditorium', but failed to do so in the end because of 'various reasons'). Even after the event was done and dusted, our work is still not done yet. The expensive backdrop that took us so long to assemble it was destroyed in just a few minutes. Lolz! And also I helped clean up the final bits like throwing garbage bags... Ooops I sound like a cleaner. xD. But seriously I'm exhausted after the busy day.

But overall, the event was a successful one. Everyone did their parts brilliantly. The band performances were great. The car show was also great. What's best is that this whole event is for charity!

No doubts about it since the first day the event was planned, there were conflicts and a bit of arguments, at times even seem chaotic, nevertheless it is still a good experience. This is my first time being involved in organizing such a big event. I've learned that organizing an event is not easy job, and it's super TIRING. This event has also given me the chance to talk to and work with classmates whom I previously never even spoken to before.

At the end of the day, we were told that 75% of us got an A for this PR subject. Hopefully I'm one of the 75%. Haha. But still it's everybody's effort to make this event a good one, and so I have to thank everyone. I'm relieved that after this event, I have a 3-week semester break! Woohoo..

Before I go, just some pictures from Rave 2 Save event day. Unfortunately I didn't take photos for the performances, the below pictures are all from the car show. Those cars on show were cool. And there's even a car with NOS! Yes... you got it right! Nitrous Oxide System! OMG.

(A Kenari with Benz sign... xD)

(Checkout the center panel... Wait... There's no center panel! Just a gear sticking out between the two seats! Handbrakes? What handbrakes? lol)

(The car of the day with NOS.)

Eclipse

There will be a total sun eclipse tomorrow 22nd July 2009, from 8:29am to 9:48am Malaysian time. During the period of time, the moon passes between the sun and the earth, casting a shadow on the earth. This solar eclipse will be the longest total solar eclipse of the 21st century, so don't miss it.

The Dead Crow

Okay... First of all this title reminds me of a poem I studied way back when I was in Form 1 as part of the English Literature, but of course this post isn't about that 'old-man-gasping-for-air' poem by A. Samad Said.

Yesterday afternoon, while I was on the way driving to BBK Jusco, along the main road somewhere in front of the abandoned shopping complex project, I see two crows... Okay whats so special about seeing two crows in a town which is so 'saturated' with it? Well, of course there's something that caught my eye. The two crows are standing in the middle of the road, in front of a pile of 'something', which at first I thought would be rubbish or dead animals that mean food to crows.

When I drove past them, I found out that the pile of 'something' is actually a dead crow. Surely a victim of a roadkill. Why would a crow, who could actually fly, chooses to walk across the road and fell victim to a car? I don't know.

The main point is, the two crows seem to be mourning the death of the dead crow. When my car is apporaching them, the two crows flew to the side of the road momentarily, after I drove past them, I looked into my rear-view mirror and see them coming to the side of the dead crow again. It might be their friend, their sibling, their partner... Now who says animals whom we hate so much like crows doesn't have feelings?

Note: In an unrelated story to my post above, I don't know whether is it because I drive here and there a lot, but I noticed that recently there are too many roadkills. Almost everyday, somewhere along my journey to whatever places that I'm going, I see corpses of animals like cats, dogs, even birds on the roads. And my gosh most of them looked scary, you can see their....... okay I don't wanna describe. Maybe its because I used to be the passenger in my dad's car before I took my driving license last year, and as a passenger we seldom pay attention to what's on the road, we tend to be more interested in the 'sceneries' along our trip instead, hence I never notice that many roadkills. So it's just my opinion that there are more roadkills nowadays compared to few years back. Or is it really on the up? If yes, is it because animals nowadays are more stupid that they don't know when to cross the road? Or because humans nowadays are more stupid they always drive so fast that they can't avoid killing animals crossing the roads? Don't mean to offend anyone here, but please lar... Don't drive so fast lah... Avoid killing animals mar... Most important avoid killing own life lor...

Oldtown; Newstuff?

Once again its Friday!!! My favourite day of all the seven days available in a week... -_-"

And its has actually become some sort of a routine for me to have a cup of tea with my gang every single Friday night. Tonight (or should I say yesterday night coz its past midnight now), me and my gang went to one of our hanging-out 'hotspots', Oldtown White Coffee along Jalan Kapar. It's one of my favourite place to chill out with my friends because the environment is good and spacious, with open air as well as air-conditioned sections, nice food and drinks, and also it has free wi-fi connections, so I could actually be considered as a loyal customer of the Oldtown franchise^^. But today we were greeted with something new... A NEW MENU!!!

Seriously I don't know why am I excited about it, but I'm just excited. When I actually get hold of the new menu, I was like 'Wow', without knowing what am I 'Wow-ing' about. I knew they have changed the menu several times, but this time, they altered their menu to include side orders and snacks like chicken wings and fries. Well... are they trying to compete with mamak stalls and western food outlets? lol. And also, after introducing breakfast meal package a few months back, a brand new lunch meal package came out. Its all about the trend, it seems like every food outlet you go nowadays, you have breakfast sets and/or lunch sets... There is clearly competitions going on, you came out with something, so I come out with my version of that something, and hope that my version will be better than yours.

Enough of talking about Oldtown, I now wanna talk about what me and my gang talked about while we were there, and seriously our main talking point did put me in a hard position. I'll explain...

First of all, I came out with the idea of going to the cinema to watch 'Ice Age 3' the next day, and I'm so confident that everyone will agree with this outing, given that last week we couldn't settle for which movie to watch (I wanna watch Transformers while others wanna watch Ice Age, and I did end up watching Transformers but not with them), so this time around I thought Ice Age would be okay. However it turns out not to be the case. Some say wanna rest, some say no money... But in the end somehow we all agreed to go.

A problem solved, another one pops out. No one seemed willing to drive. And I was bombarded by reasons why I should be the one who drive. My car is the most fuel saving so I should drive... I came out with the idea of this outing so I should drive... But a big problem is, my car ran out of petrol and if I were to drive, I would need to refuel. My friends agreed to share petrol with me, but I still kinda refuse to drive. Why??? Because I couldn't make up my mind of how much they would have to share. Taking too little, I'm afraid they might think why the hell I wanna charge them if it's so little? (and for some reasons I really can't go to a petrol station and refuel a single-digit amount worth of fuel...) Taking too much, of course I won't feel good about it. And also I have no idea how much is too little how much is too much. Then one of us came out with an amount after a round of precise 'fuel consumption' counting. I made sure everyone of us agreed with that amount, only then I said okay...

Haha... The lesson of the story is: Sometimes a problem might seem a small one at first glance, but when it involves money and principles, it could actually turn out to be a more complicated one. Or maybe I'm just a complicated guy who thinks way too much...

But at the end of the day, what pisses me off most is that after solving so many problems and we all agreed with the outing, I went home and tried to book tickets online, I found out that all reservation seats for tomorrow's show is fully booked. I was like 'What the hell?', Ice Age 3 has been showing for 2 weeks already and yet I can't get tickets for tomorrow? My gosh its a bit unbelievable in my opinion... Zzz...

A Thought...

I came across this e-mail few days back... Found out that its nice... Copy it all here... To share with all of you...





To all my friends who are single,
Love is like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it eludes you,
But when you let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it,
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,
But love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it,
So take your time and choose the best.

To my friends who are 'not-so-single',
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person',
It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To my friends who are 'playboy/playgirl' type,
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care, never talk about feelings if they aren't there,
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart, never look in the eye if all you do is lie,
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways.

To my friends who are married,
Love is not about 'It's your fault', but 'I'm sorry',
Not 'Where are you', but 'I'm right here',
Not 'How could you', but 'I understand',
Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are',

To my friends who are engaged,
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.

To my friends who are heartbroken,
Heartbreaks lasts as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go,
The challenge is to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To my friends who are naive,
How to be in love:
Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,
Share and never to be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
And get hurt but never keep the pain.

To my friends who are possessive,
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else,
But it is more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

To my friends who are afraid to confess,
Love hurts when you break up with someone,
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you,
But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To my friends who are still holding on,
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love,
Only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it,
If he/she wasn't worth it now he/she's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now,
Let go...

To all my friends,
My wish for you is a man/woman whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding, and unselfish.





Gosh! Take a deep breath and digest... Those words above are 100% copied, and they were sooooooo deep that it would need to take an experienced person to understand it all. But even a rookie or amateur person in life like me could take a thing or two out of it. Well... it does give me a thought, a nice thought...

By the way, my semester finals is coming next week, and I'm here 'digesting' things about love and blogging about it... My oh my... Why not let me receive an e-mail about studies and let me 'digest' about it? Lol...

The Depature

This is my first ever blog post, and I promised myself to make it good and memorable.

Call me a late starter or what, but better late than never, right? In a time where even politicians blog, how can I not? For the past year or so I have been using my Windows Live Space as my 'blog'. But it's time to change to something which is more 'blog-like', and so here I am on blogger.com.

First of all, why 'Diary of Jen'? Well... all I can say is that it is inspired by the Breaking Benjamin hit back in 2006, 'The Diary of Jane', combined with a short-form of my name, 'Jen'. If you haven't heard of the song, turn on your speakers right now! (Warning: A bit of a heavy metal rock song that might not suit everyone's taste, if so, mute your speakers)

Second of all, why is my first post 'The Depature' when it should have been 'The Arrival'? There's a reason for every single thing that I do, by launching this blog, I am launching myself into a whole new chapter of my life. A depature from the old me, to a brand new me. Compared to my previous 'blog', which has almost being turned into a sports forum because I bombarded it with sports stuffs, this blog will record the bits of my everyday life, my deepest thoughts that I sometimes finds it hard to share, and everything between it. In the real world, people often see me in two modes, the 'silent-serious mode', and the 'loud-crazy mode', but whichever 'mode' I'm in, there are always thoughts going through my mind. When I'm quiet, I'm thinking. When I'm loud, I'm thinking too. Sometimes what people see in my reaction towards something does not neseccarily reflect what's in my thoughts. Here in my blog, I hope to share with everyone the deepest part of me, the true me.

And to be honest, physically I'm 19, but hell most of the time i felt that I still think as a kid, and act as one too. Hmm... it would be hard for me to explain... but let me just share 2 pictures...

This was how I looked like when I was 16.

This is how I look like now.

However, deep inside... I guess I'm still more to someone who look like this...

Haha! Thats the first deep thought I would like to share. I'm perhaps more kiddy as anyone would thought! :) And maybe my sense of humour wasn't that good after all...

Anyway, thats it for my first ever blog post. I now would hope to depart from the old me, to a brand new me! I promise there's more to come, more to share with everyone on this blog, my online diary, 'Diary of Jen'...

(Note: On 12.40am, 14th July 2009, I finally started to blog!!! What a historic moment! -_-")